I never stopped.

Sudden lost creates changes unexpected.

Words left me that day

When I saw your name

And remembered face

The landscape of my reality

Changed forever,

Broken by the ill news.

Waste lands grew

From treasured memories

Expectations were lost

In the avalanche of disbelief

Camelot has fallen,

It will rise no more

Why? Has no meaning,

Lingering in the background of my soul

Tears form and dry

In blurring visions of could-have-been

Unspoken hopes spin to nightmarish dreams,

As heartbeats fade

Before the Throne of wishes

I will cast my thoughts,

Blue skies

Filled with clouds grown dark

From the storm rising,

Final words

Of forgiveness.

The healing begins,

So too, will the past

Come gentle in my mind.

Forgive me

I never stopped loving you.