Not the same

For my mum..an absolute lady!

My mum is not the same now.
She still knows my name
And remembers her own
But she gets so confused 
About the time
And where she is 
She wants to go home

And I cry inside 
Where none can see
She was my best friend
She never let me down 
I failed her I feel
It had gotten too hard
To keep her at home
You see 
Though we tried 
But it nearly broke me again 

She seems happy though
And they look after her well 
But it's not the same
She's not the same
But she is still here 
Smiling through it all 
I take that from her I think 
A lovely inheritance 

I hope she never knows any more pain
She has had more than her share 
I pray she keeps on smiling
Until God takes her home
I'm grateful 
She is still here 
She is just not the same now 
But she is still my mum
My beautiful mum.

Reviews

[Mauricio Montoya]

This write touches me in many ways because it hit the very core of those we love dear, we wonder how our memories together forever can be forgotten in a single moment as we watch. Its hard to comprehend only endure with a the love we have left. Thank you for sharing

Sister in spirit.

[Caroline B A Maguire]

My pleasure to share mauricio. Exactly ..if not for the love we could never endure watching those closest to us decline so slowly..but I take comfort in knowing she is happy in her own wee world and she is safe . Thank you for your thoughts and comments..Caroline 🙂

[Patricia Wedel]

Your poem brings Tears... where memories lie...
So beautifully rendered... tenderly, Pat

[Caroline B A Maguire]

Aw thank you pat..I'm glad it spoke to your heart..thank you for taking the time to read..Caroline 🙂

[Coyote Poetry]

I have memory loss from the Army giving me 11 anthrax shots. It is scary. This is why I read non-stop. Keep my mind working.
"She is still here
She is just not the same now
But she is still my mum
My beautiful mum."
I understand the above lines. The people we love dear Caroline. We must be kind to and love. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and you thoughts.
Coyote

[Caroline B A Maguire]

Thank you for sharing your stories too coyote. I just googled anthrax shots there..not good..😔 glad you are still able to enjoy reading..it was a very great hobby of mine that I lost ability of for about 25 years due to lack of concentration with my illness..but thank God and with perseverance I'm getting back into it well..thanks for reading and your kind words. Caroline 🙂

[Coyote Poetry]

They invented book on tape. I have re-listen to all the great books for free on YouTube. We must keep our minds working. I do the vitamins. But my grandfather read three new papers a day and books. He kept the strong mind. I copy his ways. You Tube is cool. Nice when someone can read for you dear Caroline. You are welcome.

[Caroline B A Maguire]

I had gotten very lazy with my thinking ab dwelt too long in the dark places as they were all I knew fir 3 decades but I think Gid eventually got fed up with my laments and pushed me on out into the light lol..so now I'm reading again and trying to write and basically stretch myself a wee bit more..I've been given a 2nd chance And I'm grabbing it! 😊😉

[Caroline B A Maguire]

*God* not Gid lol

[LostSage]

when you say mum it sounds funny to me. i am a america boy we say mom. I know enough that when a mommy first time holds her baby she falls in love with her baby. years go by with many many troubles. it is not our fault that the machine of time rolls on crunching many people under it. sweet day to you. jeff

[Caroline B A Maguire]

Thank you Jeff.. aye its a cruel world at times. I'm not a "mom" myself so I haven't felt that but I don't I've missed out..there are alot of variants of love on this planet Thank God..we all get our share..thank you fir reading and your comments..I'm.loving the interaction with other writers more than anything on this cafe..😊

[Chris Shaw]

You could have written this about my mum who is in exactly the same situation as yours. It is heart breaking, I know. All I hope is that my mum is free from pain, both physical and mental and she doesn’t feel it or understand her own decline. Heart wrenching write for sure.

Chris

[Caroline B A Maguire]

It's a too familiar story chris. My dad is in the same home with her he has alzheimer's too..but at least they are together..its been tough to see their decline to be sure..but such is life..who are we to question God's plan for us..we never know what He is sparing us from when he gives us trouble..maybe double??!!thank you for reading and empathising..Caroline. 🙂

[Chris Shaw]

It is a small comfort that your mum and dad are together. Take care of yourself Caroline.Your strong faith will help you.