Just Shut Up And Drink The Coffee

Just Shut Up And Drink The Coffee

A Poem by trainwreck

Its much shorter than it looks.

Its impossible to find me, 
Because I am a lie. 
I have lived to hide me 
for a whole stupid life. 
But all this time...
You have existed 
To love me.
God, why?
Why on earth 
Did you find me? 
There is nothing 
I can say to stop 
My heart from 
Breaking when I 
Look deep in your eyes. 
You see, you've seen the truth: 
I am a lie. 
I am trying 
So hard....
So hard to act alive. 
I breathe. 
(Is that what live people do?)
I smile. 
(Is that what live people do?)
I laugh. 
(I know I've seen them do that).
Darling, keep me satisfied
Because I can't afford to die. 
Could this be me.... Crying? 
You've seen this plea. 
Will you forget it? 
Get over dramatic, desperate me? 
Will you ignore the scream
Because its only in my eyes? 
Well, after all, we like my pet lie. 
Its easier to buy 
That the cold, hard truth: 
I've always wanted to be perfect,
Perfect, just so you
Would stop tearing apart my dreams,
Stop tearing apart
The better, stronger, darker 
Parts of me. 
By grace, I am complete. 
But, honestly, 
Do you really think I'll make it out? 
Get washed away before I drown? 
Someone could always find 
My dead eyes
Staring out from the tide. 
Oh... well, never mind. 
Because it had almost seemed fine,
Until I remembered...
I am a lie. 

© 2011 trainwreck

Author's Note

Wrote this in Barnes and Noble yesterday, when I decided to not censor myself on how I felt. I'm not sure if its art or just stress release.

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I like the strong and honest words in this poem. Life can twist us up and is hard to find a place to now peace. Most of us live a life in a lie to survive. Hard to be real and know the truth in this crazy life we must live. Thank you for a excellent poem.

Posted 12 Years Ago

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Stress release disguised as art is what I would say. tis a pity that one so young has so many paralyzing life questions. Your friend in words, Pete

Posted 10 Years Ago

Im not sure how the tittle fits into this piece, but I will say you have left me speechless.
Another moving amaing write. Well done.
So many raw emotions, and you have revelaed you...Wonderful

Posted 11 Years Ago


11 Years Ago

Yeah, this title is pretty obscure. Partially it's a reference to where I wrote it, and it's also a .. read more
Tribute To Jadey

11 Years Ago

It was a pleasure, you do have amazing talent. Ah, well that explains why I did not get it then...I'.. read more
The title ROCKS! So does the poem. Very honest and open words. The second stanza was my favorite. I really liked how it was written. Good job.

Posted 11 Years Ago


11 Years Ago

Thank you for your two lovely reviews! I will be adding to the book as I can; hopefully 7 and 8 will.. read more
zach h.

11 Years Ago

You are most welcome. I look forward to delving into those chapters when they arrive. I might send y.. read more
just is great as well as intriguing. love it

Posted 11 Years Ago

It's obviously a release, of what I don't know, maybe of unclear aspects about you as a person? Is it art? Yes it is.

"I breathe.
(Is that what live people do?)
I smile.
(Is that what live people do?)
I laugh.
(I know I've seen them do that)"

-Lovely use of interrogation.

"Will you ignore the scream
Because its only in my eyes?"

-I adore two three things in poetry: good rare rhymes, use of colors and eyesss. Good job on that one!

"Because it had almost seemed fine,
Until I remembered...
I am a lie. "

-The perfect ending for an imperfect doubt in life and death. The first few lines of the poem were a bit weak, but attractive. I enjoyed this thought-provoking piece. Keep it up.

Posted 12 Years Ago

It's a wonderful poem. I liked the way you've written it... very honest and a awesome write.

Posted 12 Years Ago

Wow, I hope you didn't take out some of that stress on the fine folks there at Barnes and Noble. Might have made quite a scene. Sometimes a person's just got to vent. I wonder, don't we all live lies to some extent? This was a wonderful expression of ones innermost thoughts, or anxieties, or whatever it is I'm trying to say, and yes...it is art, and stress release; both, together. Imagine that.

Posted 12 Years Ago

Yes! A really Good strong write and truthful, I sincerely loved this.

Posted 12 Years Ago

Holy crap. I thought from the title this would be a funny piece, but I was in for a surprise. This is really good. I personally don't believe in any gods, but we all still have some figure in our life who represents absolute power, and who is often telling us we can't do whatever, or to just fit in. And who isn't a lie, in the end?

Posted 12 Years Ago

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Added on August 10, 2011
Last Updated on August 10, 2011




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