Ways to End Depression

Ways to End Depression

A Poem by James Johnson

You should read it. The title is an understatement


Paranoid about the future

Fearful of reliving the past

My life dislikes life

How long will this last?


Day by day

Year by year

Sitting alone with my thoughs

Chills me in fear


I love my actions

Every slice opens a gate

A gate of happy reactions

And when it closes

A new one opens


Staying awake

In the endless dark

Speaking to friends

Wishing my life would end


Sitting in the room

Playing russian roulette

The trigger is one with my finger

And pulls with no regret


In the bathroom

In front of the mirror

Candy in one hand

Water in the other

Feeling alittle funny

Too much candy


Running close to the water


Going farther and farther

I slipped

My body drips

As they pull me out of the water


Being a boy scout is fun

All the animals i see

My favorite by far

Is the Monkey


Flying with no wings

Just a bird with no urge to sing

As i get closer

I try flapping away...



Walking in school

Laughing at false humor

Fake smile slide across my face

Pretending that im ok

God, im a disgrace


I pretend and pretend

And my soul doesnt change


I laugh and laugh

When dealing with the pain


I smile and smile

Wishing i will leave


Lying about happiness

Is a lie i always concieve


Facing the pain head on

Is how it will be relieved

Im sorry to everyone

But you have been deceived

© 2010 James Johnson

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This is true. :| Sad, but true.

Posted 10 Years Ago

I feel better knowing that I have not been alone in the depression state.

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Posted 13 Years Ago

This is amazingly sad, in a good way. It's nice to read something you can completely relate to. I absolutely love the third stanza. I hope you're writing relieves you in some way.

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Posted 14 Years Ago

I can relate so closely...
This is so tragic...
But knowing I'm not alone, that makes me feel better. I agree with Angela.
Thank you for posting this.

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Posted 14 Years Ago

This is really sad. I know how you feel though since I have a lot of problems. I think depressed people need to form a union with each other. It might help us kick our depression, but for me I really don't think it will work. I really don't know. I'm sorry for everyone that is depressed and wants to die. I include myself in that matter, but there is really nothing I can do until my parents do something. Nice write though. There is some sad emotions within this piece. Thanks for sharing. :()

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Posted 14 Years Ago

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Added on June 14, 2010
Last Updated on September 5, 2010
Tags: hatred, demons, graves, dead, tears, cry, death, dark, depression, sad, pain, cutting
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