Ways to End Depression

Ways to End Depression

A Poem by James Johnson
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You should read it. The title is an understatement

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Paranoid about the future

Fearful of reliving the past

My life dislikes life

How long will this last?

 

Day by day

Year by year

Sitting alone with my thoughs

Chills me in fear

 

I love my actions

Every slice opens a gate

A gate of happy reactions

And when it closes

A new one opens

 

Staying awake

In the endless dark

Speaking to friends

Wishing my life would end

 

Sitting in the room

Playing russian roulette

The trigger is one with my finger

And pulls with no regret

 

In the bathroom

In front of the mirror

Candy in one hand

Water in the other

Feeling alittle funny

Too much candy

 

Running close to the water

Running

Going farther and farther

I slipped

My body drips

As they pull me out of the water

 

Being a boy scout is fun

All the animals i see

My favorite by far

Is the Monkey

 

Flying with no wings

Just a bird with no urge to sing

As i get closer

I try flapping away...

Damn

 

Walking in school

Laughing at false humor

Fake smile slide across my face

Pretending that im ok

God, im a disgrace

 

I pretend and pretend

And my soul doesnt change

 

I laugh and laugh

When dealing with the pain

 

I smile and smile

Wishing i will leave

 

Lying about happiness

Is a lie i always concieve

 

Facing the pain head on

Is how it will be relieved


Im sorry to everyone

But you have been deceived

© 2010 James Johnson


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This is true. :| Sad, but true.

Posted 6 Years Ago


I feel better knowing that I have not been alone in the depression state.

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Posted 9 Years Ago


This is amazingly sad, in a good way. It's nice to read something you can completely relate to. I absolutely love the third stanza. I hope you're writing relieves you in some way.

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Posted 9 Years Ago


I can relate so closely...
This is so tragic...
But knowing I'm not alone, that makes me feel better. I agree with Angela.
Thank you for posting this.

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Posted 9 Years Ago


This is really sad. I know how you feel though since I have a lot of problems. I think depressed people need to form a union with each other. It might help us kick our depression, but for me I really don't think it will work. I really don't know. I'm sorry for everyone that is depressed and wants to die. I include myself in that matter, but there is really nothing I can do until my parents do something. Nice write though. There is some sad emotions within this piece. Thanks for sharing. :()

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Posted 9 Years Ago



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James Johnson
James Johnson

Pittsburgh, PA



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