Some Great Reward

Doubt and fear have overcome me......

 

What great reward has been lost to me?

The promises and hopes and dreams of a lifetime

Darkened by my fears and doubts

And all the greatness that might have been

Now discarded in the dust and decay

Of my tears and pain and desire

And all the things that were to be

Now may not yet be mine

Or not at all to ever be

These great rewards denied and lost

Seemingly escaped from my grasp

And only serve as to remind me

Of those things that could have, should have been

My great true love a continent away

My plans unmade before my eyes

My loneliness now reflected in my actions

And my desperate cry that is unheard

Was this is it was meant to be?

I see myself as all my heroes

Lost to time and memory

And that I were to join them

Contemplative of my disconnecting

Permanently and absolutely

Is this now how it shall be?

Hopeless and angry at what I am and have done

And doubt now fills my heart and thoughts

As some great reward recedes from my view and grasp

And I am overcome…

 

 

Is this as it was meant to be?

Is this as it will continue?

All the dreams are gone, gone, gone

And I am left here, empty….

Reviews

[Ralphy]

Nice write James. I find the form and flow bring out the meaning well. The question effect seems to bring the characters mine to light. (hopeless) I have one question about this line "Was this is it was meant to be?" I 'm not sure I understand that, unless your question the past to present. thank you for share this great write.

[Kris Tate]

Beautifully written, sad and hopeless. It is a great write, your flow and ease of words helped to show the feelings.

And just as you know, I never think its hopeless

xoxo