do i wanna be

sometimes when i look into the mirror

i don't know who i'll find

i change myself so much every day of my life

i'm different people all the time

to my friends,

i'm crazy and high

i laugh all day

got no worries today

to my parents,

i'm a disappointment

i'm irresponsible

but somehow i make it through

to my sister,

i'm annoying

i'm immature

(don't worry, i still love you)

to my classmates,

i'm that quiet, short girl

with the bright red glasses

who knows "everything"

but do you know,

do you know i'm different people

to different people

i can't control the way i change

to my online friends

i'm nuts, i laugh a lot

i crack jokes and i'm witty

i code and draw like crazy

to my mom,

i'm deep and philosophical

i love long conversations

i know who i am

to myself,

i'm messed up 

i'm insecure

don't know where i'm going

yeah i'm different people

to different people

and somehow as i walk away

who i am begins to change

how does this happen,

i don't understand

these changes made

within my mind

whenever i'm with someone new

they all see, a different me

i talk to guys, i'm tough and wry

i talk to girls, i'm sensitive and shy

do you see, do you see

the different sides to me

can you see, can you see

the changes

when i'm with different people,

they may think different things about me

cause i might act,

differently

but i gotta figure out who i am sometime soon

can't keep on changing based on what fits my mood

i've gotta make my way through life

pave a path i like

do i wanna be

wild and crazy

nuts, disobedient

a party girl

who doesn't have

a care in the world?

do i wanna be

shy and smart

the person who

studies for every test

people know i'm the one

who gets straight a's?

do i wanna be

flirty and fake

checking my instagram

every two minutes

hang out with guys

ditch my friends?

do i wanna be

a social butterfly

i have a billion 

social media accounts

i connect with 

everyone around?

do i wanna be

sad and lonely

i have no friends

but at least i know

what i want in life

and how to get it?

do i wanna be

popular royalty

a backstabbing

heart breaker

who knows everybody

else's business?

do i wanna be

the one everybody trusts

kind and peaceful

nothing else

i'm taken advantage of

but i'm still fine?

or do i wanna be

the alt. girl who

writes songs and poems

all day long

gotta put my headphones on

like i already do?

do i wanna be,

do i wanna be,

do i wanna be,

the real me?

oh, but

who is she?

i have to stop changing,

figure out who i really am

i have to stop switching

identities on whim

do i wanna be

the real me?

Reviews

[luxx]

This poem is so relatable, wow I love this.

[hannah]

ahhh!!! thank you! :) i wrote it cause i don't ever really feel like myself c':

[luxx]

You're not the only one

[hannah]

:) i'm glad and sad to hear that