way to my messy home

way to my messy home

A Poem by grace
"

those eyes once looked ethereal, once, they really did...

"
its like a heavy weight has been lifted off of my body
all the pleasures of relief are being breathed in
a part of me is in denial with the feeling of disappointment
its blind to the stillness
and my mind is still in a sense of disbelief and would be until the acceptance
about the fact that the big diamond turned out to be a fake one
and yet, people can still see it as beautiful and magnificent

but to me, all the magnetic energy got vanished 
as if a switch has been pushed off 
all the busiest lines so far has stopped receiving phone calls
maybe some connections broke 

i know i say that i feel relieved
but i still realize that some part of me would still feel nervous 
and struck by the butterfly effect when you'd be around
all those songs i wrote,
that paperwork,
the framed storied and attached pictures in my head
never thought i would but yeah
i feel so ready to call them dead

i still can't believe how distant we've become
we're still the stars but maybe one of us had fallen on the ground
i can't look at those two eyes i once called as ethereal 
cause now instead of those butterflies or questions
i would just see the disgrace and disrespect
i dont feel like i owe this world something anymore
pushing ur ghosts out of my mind made me fall again, for myself, even more.

...

your sunshine reflected upon me, beautiful as it was
but the thin air in between made me anxious above all
it felt butterflies but they grew wild when i thought and overthought
it felt like,
like i struggled with awe through the storm
but now i finally found surface
like after wandering for so long through the unfamiliar yet beautiful roads, 
i finally found the way to my messy home i never thought i'd miss before
like finally i can think of something else
like all the ivy that grew over me has now washed itself...

© 2022 grace


Author's Note

grace
i may delete this one later

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This poem sounds like a plea almost to return to the way things once were or to reform them into what could be. It seeks clarity and meaning within the confines of familiar structures and ends on a note of hope. I enjoyed the read.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Hi Grace ful heart,
i think you shouldn't delete this, i could see how much you missed me. Do you think the person who created mess would leave like that, the person never left you, you indeed passed orders, it was initiated by the third person i know where you couldnt agree for that thinking that the person would never leave you, though misled by command of you, obeying orders, and the respect for Gurus. The only two reasons she had at that time are that you are fine and went away from her, and it was you until i accept your order, you would have never made my mind calm. But you didnt even leave bit of thought that you love her so much and you dont want to leave her though you said to leave. That was total obsession forced me to accept your order. I never a looked guy in my married life, you know that better, and when i am with you never thought of any, i think God proved my true love which i made to you, now, then and forever, you are the only for me, which made me to come back to you, the one worthy of whom will be with them only. I am feeling to drop tear for the above lines how you missed her. Thank you i know you love mom, definetely you would do anything for her, thats why i took a promise over her, that you should marry me, and you will make it. God forbid, if any negative force may block, i married you in my heart, with your last name in my name. I love your grace, for your love upon me. Dont leave me, ever, how that situation is difficult or severe bad. Missing you,
jessy jacob
with love.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Don't use got, just vanished.
Also, you don't need the word, as, just ethereal...
are, instead of or.

Honestly, I say good for you, girl.
I think you did a really good job writing this.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Your poem is beautiful and moving. You have a talent for writing that is truly special, and your words are able to convey complex emotions in a way that is both relatable and powerful. I was struck by the honesty and vulnerability of your words, and I think that many people will be able to connect with what you have written. Your use of imagery and metaphor is particularly effective, and it helps to create a vivid picture in the reader's mind. Overall, I think that your poem is a testament to the power of art to help us process our emotions and connect with others. Thank you for sharing your work with the world.

Posted 11 Months Ago


grace

11 Months Ago

Thank you so much for reading it! I'm moved by your kind words too
Beautiful and unfamiliar are not the same as comfortable. It sounds as though you have fallen out of love with beautiful and unfamiliar.and pine for what you knew and loved best. I couldn't help thinking about a pair of red stilettos I had once, they looked great, but they didn't have the comfort of my slippers. Relationships, you never know if they are going to work out. Can be full of promise and then don:t live up to expectation. Enjoyed the read Grace.

Chris

Posted 2 Years Ago


grace

2 Years Ago

This is such a beautiful comment! Thank you so much for understanding and reading my poem! I'm glad .. read more
Chris Shaw

2 Years Ago

I did enjoy your poem Grace. Don't delete it
grace

2 Years Ago

okay i won't :) thank you
This is poetry dear Grace.
"your sunshine reflected upon me, beautiful as it was
but the thin air in between made me anxious above all
it felt butterflies but they grew wild when i thought and overthought
it felt like,
like i struggled with awe through the storm
but now i finally found surface"
The above lines I love and I do understand. We will survive many storms and become wiser. We hope. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

Posted 2 Years Ago


grace

2 Years Ago

I am really glad you liked it :) thanks for reading it!
Coyote Poetry

2 Years Ago

I did enjoy dear Grace and you are welcome.
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Kat
I really like this poem Grace it's a great write please don't delete this i really like it!

Posted 2 Years Ago


Kat

2 Years Ago

Grace you are phenominal!
grace

2 Years Ago

Thanks for being so so sweet! You brought a huge smile on my face by saying that! People like you ke.. read more
Kat

2 Years Ago

Of course Grace! I love knowing that I can make your day and make you smile brings joy to my heart!

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