Re: Birthday

Dear Wathanya,

Happy belated birthday. I'm glad to hear that you're doing well. FYI, It's only been two weeks. 

Smart of you to report that you're taking care of yourself. You know I would've nagged you to death. You say you got your 'fall schedule,' but you already had your schedule planned till March next year, including your trip back to visit your parents and sister. Just...make sure you're eating well and not overworking yourself.

You said you couldn't pick a name, but a few paragraphs later you chose to write TPoaD instead of, say, TPoaE/D. I think the answer is clear. If it's not, I believe that you shouldn't let the fear of being asked awkward questions stop you from doing what you want to do (as long as you don't harm others, but I don't think I have to tell you that).

I hope you have fun at your last birthday party this year, with or without the pushy guy. If he's there, remember that there's eight other nice people who will be present too. And they're all there for you. Well, maybe for the chicken wings too, but mainly for you. So don't be discouraged by one person.

Same goes for the review thing. Even if the person that posted the review was your ex's partner and you find them hot (don't even try to lie; you know I know what goes on in your head), that doesn't give them the free pass to bashing your writing by reverse cherry picking and especially not flat out lying about things. In any case, whether or not the person that posted the review was your ex's partner, they're just one negative, dishonest person whom you wouldn't want to be friends with.

TPoaP is a very complex and not-for-the-faint-hearted novella that definitely falls into the noir category/genre. I know you have already changed many things about it--one of which changed the tone of the whole story--but the very genre it falls in will make people question their morality; and not everyone deals with it maturely. I don't know what's going to happen, but I want you to love and take care of yourself no matter what. I'll be here if you want me.

If people from the student org had read your book, you're going to have a very interesting night, so prepare yourself for that. Also, I know you're hesitant to let anyone from your country read the book, but rest assured, I don't think you've done anything morally wrong. The fact that one of the people from the association told you he loved your book proves my point and should knock my other point into your head--not everyone from your country is close-minded and controlling.

Your immediate family seems supportive. They are very likely also processing yet another new facet you've revealed to them. I still wonder if they've come to terms with the fact that you're polyamorous. Jesus! There's a red line under "polyamorous!" What does one have to do to get rid of it? Type "poly-amorous" instead? Well, it does the trick, but still...

You've certainly been busy, but I'm proud of you for taking care of yourself all the way here. You should be proud of yourself, too. You're slowly evolving and truly caring for yourself, and that's very beautiful.

I feel that I have changed as well--more gentle, accepting, and patient--and I frankly don't know what that means. Maybe you'll have to ask the doc. My hypothesis would be that you're slowly accepting the fact that you're a genius and that it doesn't change you as a person, and those realizations make your mind (aka. me) more peaceful. 

Peaceful is an exaggeration; you can't stop thinking about the systems of, um, everything, but it's easier on your mind now that you have the missing jigsaw piece. In any case, I know you're fascinated by the process of change and evolution, so that's one more thing to amuse you when you ride your bike to tonight's party.

P.S. I will use whatever font you like. :)

Love,

Journal