I became the joke

- just a release, wanting to expressed this sad disbelief i suffer often times...

I started to be jolly then I became the joke, I get used to it somehow - but often times I felt the sting that I am the sore loser in the end…

 

Tired, but not wanting to lose the happy façade I pretend - for I don’t want to rub disbelief to anyone whose life is content.

Author's Note

I'll be hiding this soon...this is quite personal...

Reviews

[Wolfwind]

Life is like the ocean, full of different currents and debris and fish in the sea. Yet, one thing is a truth within the wild blue.... we all are swimming in it too. So even when the storms keep up the surf, and spray and salt gets in the eyes. Just remember you've got friends, who shall shelter the cries.

I'm sure that what ever it is that has inspiried these four lines that you have writen, will, like the winds and clouds...blow on by.

Aaron =)

[Pax]

your words are like poetry itself mr. A...
thank you so much...
Like the wind, often times it comes but i am waiting all the same for i know it will come...
grateful with your amazing response...

[wordwarrior]

Life can be just like this. We are happy on the outside and people mistake that for having feelings that can't be hurt. So responses can be made that make us the butt of everyone's jokes and they thinking we don't mind. I am sure if they knew they would understand.
Thank you for sharing this here.

[Pax]

thank you for encouraging words... I appreciate that very much!

[MikeV]

I wouldn't hide this, its a very heartfelt piece

[Pax]

thank you, I appreciate that very much!

[I Am Svetlana]

I love the meaning behind this piece and am more than sure that many are able to relate. For me, personally, it hurts when people ridicule of make jokes about me in public or in private, if its just family. I don't like the feeling of being out down or seeming like I'm a big joke to those around me, the one people can laugh at or about if ever they feel the want or need for sick humor. I don't like feeling like I'm not good enough when I feel I am doing the best I can.

[Pax]

thank you my friend, it's really hard to forget such things like this happens...

[I Am Svetlana]

Yeah, it's not easy. My mom openly mocked me at work last week and yet, she didn't see a problem with it, but was only worried about me crying in front of customers and making her look bad.

[Pax]

that is so sad, but if you open up to her about the mockery that you don't liked it, she will understand, sometimes it takes courage to do so in a calm manner, still you can do it because you love your mother... and mothers always understand my friend....

[I Am Svetlana]

Thank you for those wonderful words and I will be sure to discuss it with her sometime. I should be asleep now since I have to wake up early for work, but sadly, I am not very tired:/

[Shep]

Why hide it? Everyone feels the same. I should know i have always been a joke.

[Corset]

Dearest friend, If someone laughs at you, laugh with them, all the world loves a clown...no one can hurt you by laughing at you if you join in, If we take ourselves too seriously then all the world is against us.This reminds me of that Bee Gees song "I started a joke" , I'll post for you, it's a great song. and this is a great poem.

[MOON]

We all hide behind the facade that all is right in the world, and we dont want to burden others with our sadness. Perfectly said Pax. Poignant write says much in a few words.

[gabrielle]

we all wear some facade and the hardest thing to feign is happiness. no matter how loud our laugh is some would eventually see our real nature, our pain our sorrows. in a sense, we are the big joke because of our own pretensions.

That always set pulling sensation that you can go through, to one side of the tennis court and hurled the next time reflected back to the other side. Yes, recognizable... dear you're no tennis-ball ever... much stronger, less used, and more powerful. :) tennis-balls have no wings, you have. Great little wording here, in little you say so much my dear friend. Fantastic expressions.

- Elisa

[Renée]

listening Pax.. it is very lonely when we work at hiding our feelings ..because they are to share ((Hugs))

[Riding the Rainbow]

this is very deep and true. I can relate with your words often..But please..here we are..be yourself with us..