Discombobulated

My wife and I are going through a brutal period where she is on the precipice of leaving me. I am merely writing a journal to get my emotions out without bogging her down with all of them. We discuss things, but I want to talk about it more than she does and I don't want to risk the greatest thing to ever happen to me by beating her over the head verbally.

For some odd reason, I find that posting this material will help me in some way. I have no idea why, but it is something that has been calling to me. Maybe I can help someone by posting this, maybe I won't. I can only hope none of you guys ever have to go through the process of finding out that you haven't done a good enough job for your spouse....13 years too late.