P is for fear

this is an entry for a contest about fear (what scares me) can you figure it out?

Its dark and cold a flood of tears all around me
I'm suffocating, I cant breathe
My chest aches, my fever burns
The water is cold, but im boiling hot
a dark figure in the corner with glowing red eyes
will it hurt me?
A knife in my heart across the room,
My heart was dropped, shattered like glass
The wall hit my head, or maybe the other way
Falling forever everything is black i cant see
Will something hurt me
I felt a jerk, no i just landed
Something broke, it hurts it hurts
My eyes burn from the salt, no there tears
It hurts make it stop
Inside im raging but im sad i think
I feel psychotic, insane
Make it stop make it stop
It hurts
Nightmares so real its live, monsters of the night
Spread death like the plague
Don't let it touch me im afraid it will hurt
Quite the daredevil i go out on a limb
Just two steps and it bends
I cower back in my little corner don't let me fall don't let go
I find love and once again im on that branch but im held tight
He lied, he used me my heart like glass shattered and burned
Ripped and shredded, battered and bruised
He let me go and again i fall
Its going to hurt again make it stop
Someone please catch me don't let me fall
Again i hit the ground and certain death should fall
But i sit there in pain it hurts so bad
this is my death a life of pain
make it stop oh it hurts.......
 

Author's Note

this is my fear. ill admit its hard to tell what it is but if you ask ill reveal it.

Reviews

[Dreamer]

The emotions are very strong. I feel ur fear while nt really knowing exactly what it is. Frm ur words, i would believe ur afraid of love, falling in love, the one u love turing out to be a liar. Something along those lines, please let me knw. This is a good piece. I think the title is actually a hint. am i rite??

[Devilish_Light]

yes you are correct about the title being a hint and in a way you are correct about my fear its pain itself. a lover being a liar would cause great pain. and thank you so much for the compliment :)

[HappyTaylor]

great poem :)Well written. I love youuu

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

Very dark and twisted, but in the good way. Not the bad way. P definatly stands for pain. You're afraid of being hurt over and over again. That's how I see it. The emotions are portrayed very clearly. Sharp like a knife I shall say. I like this. Nightmares were a good twist to add on it to. Instead of just dreams like most people compare. You went and said nightmares. You weren't afraid to admit that much. Everyone has fears. Yours is pain and abandonment.

[Just Cat]

Hmm, I'm not entirely sure what the 'P' stands for to be honest, maybe pain? Im not sure. (what is it? I'm curious lol)
Anyway, I loved this poem. It's great; from the word choices to the rhythm of it. I thoroughly enjoyed it.
Brilliant work.
:)

[Daytonight]

My heart reaches out to the one so in pain. I hate the feeling of being let go only to wait to hit the ground, which would be preferrable. Well written.

[brenda]

well i hope you feel beter been through this before and great poem :)