Show Me Love

Repost of story.

GIVE ME LOVE

My heart pounds in my chest as I look around this crowded club.

Bodies press against me; sweaty, too much skin showing.

I close my eyes, wanting to forget it.

What am I doing here anyway?

I don’t care about these others, these alcohol-soaked others, who move to a rhythm I can’t hear, lost as I am in my own sorrows.

I push past the crowds, escaping to the cold air of a December evening, where I disappear into the alley next to the club.

My skin is sticky, and I wipe absently at my face as I watch the couples walk past the alley.

Holding hands.

Kissing.

Loving.

I envy them.

I slid down the wall, tears springing to my eyes.

Now my hands have a purpose there.

Love - I’ve never known.

I’ve never felt the touch of another’s hand in my own.

Never felt a kiss on my lips so chapped by the wind.

I fall to my knees, bruising them.

“Love me.” I whisper.

“Love me.”

I don’t care who, just somebody, please.

I can’t go on this way.

I just need your touch.

Your words in my ear.

I sit on my ankles, my mascara running down my cheeks, and I slowly get to my feet.

Before I know it I’m running, out of the alley, down the street.

I bang into my little apartment - did I leave the door unlocked?

Like it matters.

I sit on my bed with its unwashed bedsheets.

I open the trunk before me, eye the collection of perfectly formed arrows inside.

I have to choose.

I pick out one, tap it against my palm, finger the feathers.

I press it to my throat, the sharp tip digging into my tight skin.

Am I strong enough for this?

Of course I am.

A single tear slips down my cheek as I whisper, “Give me love.”

Reviews

[Pryde Foltz]

Never felt a kiss on my lips so chapped by the wind.

A very emotive and power write:)

[EmaleighLynn]

Thank you so much Pryde! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[StephieAnne]

I got a very strong message from this piece-overall it's very descriptive and I always appreciate details in writing. I really agree with K. J.'s review, I indeed get "filmic" vibes from it. Good job! (:

[EmaleighLynn]

Thank you very much! I'm glad you enjoy the details, I always try to make my writing descriptive.

[Harmony-Lee]

Really, really like :-)
It's the image of me and so many friends at different stages of their lives.
The depth and feelings felt while reading this were so real.
Great job.

[K. J. Lucas]

OK. I will be honest and say that your title drew me to this. I assumed it had some connection to the 1998 Swedish film of the same title by Lukas Moodysson, and the title song by Swedish singer Robyn. Ostensibly, it doesn't but as if by magic you appear to be tapping into the same sort of feelings here. A very-well projected soliloquy burning for an answer to the existential question. It IS very filmic, almost like these are camera-directions for a scene. I liked very much :)

[EmaleighLynn]

Thank you for your review! I'll admit, I have no idea what either of the things you mentioned are. This is based off of Ed Sheeran's song. But I'm glad you read and liked it! Thank you again for your review!