No new years resolution, not this year...

No point making that which is to be broken

There are no new year resolutions made
as the "made" broken, and quickly, in all years past,
so quickly that the echoes of "Aulde Lang Syne"
still heard, faint, as the sky lit brilliantly,
a thousand explosions birthing a myriad
and more of colours that take away the breath,
bring out the inner child from even the most cynical,
wide eyed, open mouthed adults regressed, briefly,
but regressed all the same,
back to a time before life's burdens known...

Instead, but without self imposed resolve
I will try to place grief, this to long held,
(although I know not for certain what length of elapsed time
is time enough when grieving)
into a quiet, peaceful corner of my mind,
this corner to be visited less often than daily
as is, and has been the case these past four plus years.
I reassure myself, as reassurance needed, that this okay,
will never diminish my love for those now passed,
will not lessen the missing, now, or ever...

With this written, my load lightened, mind unburdened
I pause, look out at a cold, grey day,
"this will be a good year" I tell myself, "a good year"
I smile, we'll see...

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Grief cannot be denied, except at the risk of the denier. That said, there is a proper limit to everything, a point beyond which continuation of a practice is a detriment. Having paid your best respects to the departed, I can think of no better resolution than that of giving grief its proper place in your life.

[Gee]

A very late thank you, apologies

[Pete]

it will be if you truly resolve. the majority of people who join a gym stop going after a couple of months but there are always exceptions and those who buck the trend ... :)

[Gee]

Thanks for dropping by Pete, appreciated.

[willweb]

It is okay to keep that grieving space intact to visit every now and then but maybe slowly, inconspicuously redecorate it with the memories of those gone and fill it with love each time you visit. Indeed, they will never be forgotten and the feelings won't diminish, but like I am sure someone has said a time or two, wouldn't they want you to have a good year? Have a good year my friend, we all deserve one every now and then.

[Gee]

Thanks Will.
Hope 2024 is good to you and yours

[emmajoygreen]

New Year's and resolutions? Go through the day with feelings of MUST be positive, spread joy and all that stuff.. do so, best I can, then.. spend the next week wondering what if.. of the past. Perhaps resolutions are rather like a top-tilted look at one's faults? Does one really want to admit them when thinking time about the reason we/I cry at times, missing time spent with or sharing plans or planning shares. Your second stanza deeply shared, Gee. ' .. and more, of colours that take away the breath, - bring out the inner child from even the most cynical, - wide eyed, open mouthed adults regressed, briefly,- < happens

Your writing is at the top of a ginormous oak here, my friend.. it has everything sincere and more.. thank you.

[Gee]

My writing has never been at the top of a sapling so atop a ginormous oak tree will have my crayons positively dizzy. Was active a nice change to pen something a wee bit different.
Thank you kindly for a lovely, kind review, approval from my peers is always sought even if secretly:))
Hope you are well m'dear

[Gee]

Active...actually

[emmajoygreen]

Top of the tree you are, sir.. ask your darlings. The know the theme of your thoughts, they know a good read . You so often demote yourself.. stop it.. this is the year of the Gee!

[Gee]

" this is the year of the Gee" now that has me smiling. I wish :)

[emmajoygreen]

Practise more!

[Betty Hermelee]

A very good idea Gee; as I have none!! Going back to your grieving space less and less is a noble thing to do... and so helpful to your psyche.....the typical songs at holidays seem far off now.... until next year when the same people will sing and party, while others will reflect.....
nice piece. Happy New Year!
Warmly, B

[Gee]

Happy New year Betty, hope you are all well.
Thanks for dropping by :)

[Betty Hermelee]

You're welcome Gee, and Happy New Year... to all good things
Warmly, B

[Desert Knave]

"this will be a good year" I tell myself, "a good year". Yeah. No resolutions for myself this year, but hopefully a better approach to people. Nice write. ~Jim

[Gee]

Cheers Jim :)

[JessyJacob]

Hi dear Gee, as your caring heart ❤️ does so much magic as you are. I wish a wonderful life with family and everyone. Love your family for they do give back. Keep the momentum and enjoy every second as before, everything will be fine! A happy new year!

[Gee]

Thank you Jessy.
Happy new year

[Chris Shaw]

No resolutions here either Gee. In fact I have just poured out another vino. I am having s slobs day. Still in dressing gown and slippers. Mind you I have applied the perfume (Christmas present) . Today is a day of reflection. Quiet reflection. Missing those II would love to talk to and wondering what the hell 2024 will bring.

Happy new year :)

Chris

[Gee]

Images of Hilda Ogden spring to mind:))
Enjoy the quiet reflection and vino.
Thanks for dropping in.
Happy new year

[Chris Shaw]

How dare you! No curlers on my flowing locks :)) or a scarf tied round my head wartime style. Ruby red dressing gown, matching slippers 😀
Yes a day of quiet reflection. You know Hilda, what a character and when she burst into song, hands went over ears. Now that is ME.

[Gee]

Laughing here :)))))))))

[Fran Marie]

your words are heartfelt..truth
within the lines of this well written
poem .finding that "peaceful corner "
of the mind .becomes hard when grieving
I can relate to that feeling..

Nice work..

[Gee]

Hi Fran Marie, thank you.
I hope you have enjoyed the Christmas break.
Happy New year

[Fran Marie]

most welcome
..& Happy New Year

[Ken Simm.]

I know just what you mean Gee. There is so much truth in this poem.

[Gee]

Thanks Ken.
Grief is a strange emotion that brings with it a sense of guilt if seen to be enjoying yourself too much. So hard to know if and when to move on with life as it was pre the death of a loved one.

[Ken Simm.]

From experience there is no right time but only a time when you want to. Or more importantly you feel they think it is time.
“Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but this same necessity of loving serves to counteract their grief and heals them.”
― Leo Tolstoy

[Gee]

I like that. Will try not to mix him up with Leo Sayer:)