Broken

A Poem by hope

I don't know how to fix myself

I don't know why i'm broken.

My heart is lit on fire,

my head is filled with words unspoken.

I crawl into bed,

exhausted from the day.

My shadow called depression set in

and in silence I lay.

I go from "i'm fine" to a cry,

from a cry to a blank stare.

No ones here to help me,

no one seems to care.

The scares on my body

show the real me.

The me without the facade,

yet no one seems to see.

Each one tells a story,

one that was life changing in one way or another.

Each time a little worse than before,

each time it went a little deeper.

Do you realize how hard it is

to not be happy within yourself?

The feeling is unbearable sometimes,

feels like i'm stuck under a book self.

Your heart is either on fire

or as cold as the shoulders of those who've turned.

It can freeze out everyone you love,

or they'll just end up burned.

I can't control when it happens,

I can't just suffer through it..

I don't know how to fix it,

I don't know what to do.

So instead i'm writing this "poem"

trying to push it aside.

I need this to help me somehow,

so I can at least say I tried.