Crying Blood

a taboo, neglected issue

My love is gone, taken far away

The proper lover stole it but didn't say

That he did it for his love of me

And that everything's okay, I'd see

 

But razor's edge takes all the pain

I try and try, but can't refrain

I miss my lover, miss my friend

I miss watching my wounds mend

 

An outright scar for inner pain

Makes heartfelt woes just melt away

But my owner is angry, he doesn't care

That cutting, to me, is only fair

 

It's not against him, it's not his fault

No matter what, though, he's distraught

I know it hurts him, but that's just it

Not cutting myself just doesn't fit

 

I need to bleed, to cry, to scream

But I know he's scared of what it means

When blood flows all else is small

And I can stand up straight, not fall

 

 

copywrite 2008 Lyndsay Castro

Author's Note

sorry if this disturbes

Reviews

[Chaos]

This is a subject that most people hide under the carpet and pretend it doesn't exsist. I love the explination. I had a friend that use to cut and I asked her one day "why do you do this to yourself?" and she simply replied "so I can feel something." My heart broke and I didn't understand before and after her words it was clear. She was numb and needed something to feel. Great write!

Chaos~

[The_emo_kid]

I love this poem. Makes me feel like I'm not the only one who thinks like this.
Thank you.

[Ankhesen Mié]

Excellent topic. Cutting is something that's either ignored (like alcoholism or domestic violence) or made trendy by a certain subculture which shall remain nameless. Glad to see someone talk about in this light.

[KGV]

This is very well written. I could feel the emotions..especially because I've been there before and I think I know how you felt. Awesome piece!

[LeeAnne]

"An outright scar for inner pain
Makes heartfelt woes just melt away"

&

"I need to bleed, to cry, to scream
But I know he's scared of what it means"

Are my two favorite lines in this poem. You are really descriptive in this poem. It works!

[youngwriter222]

This is so sad, but I'm gald that you let it all out, thats the best way to mend with hurt.
I understand how you feel, I went throught the same situation

Great job!

[alyssa]

This dosen't disturbe me... it's very sad but now i understand how you use to feel.. i like the trueness to this and i like how your not afraid to express what you really feel...Keep writing!
alyssa

[Kitty Forzaken]

This isn't as disturbing as it is sad..

I know the pain that goes with it and it is not something I ever want to feel again..

great write!

[QuietPoet]

I really like this. Its so strong and powerful. Very sad too. Great write.

[Gandré]

I also understood this poem that such a person does it in order to feel something, what sadness. I would love to embrace her and give her hugs and listen to her for ages. I absolutely adored the poetical substance of your poem, this is searching for meaning and looking for a needle in the hay.. provocative and powerful study of a strange pathetic soul. much love l. gandr� (and thank you sweetie for your words while reading my new poem Substance. much appreciated.)

[.::Cup^E^Cake*RaWr!*::.]

No it otaly doesn't desturbed me at all!!!
I love this piece it's so raw & I know exactlly what this feels like...I whent through this when i was like 13 or 14...I was depressed!!
You express this is a very beautiful way!!
I will review lots more on monday b/c then I will have the pc to myself!!
I can't wait to read more of your work though!!
Love,Peace & Resees Cups!!