A Holy Kind of Hell

A piece about Anorexia and how it can be seen, by those struggling with it, as a good and comforting thing.

With endless promises of beauty and of peace

And ways to make the number on the scale decrease

A ghostly saint then appears, extending her soft hand

Offering a shield of protection and a heart that understands

Ana has this voice, it's so holy and light

She takes my hand and guides me through cold, dark nights

As the number keeps falling, her praises of glory get louder

I strive to please her only, as she fills me with power

I'm a daughter of Ana's, devout, I stay true

 

Abiding by her rules and repenting for my sins

The hard work begins to show as the body starts to thin

High from starvation, an addiction has surely grown

As the skin becomes transparent, now a longing ache to see bone

A purpose she gave me and reasons for a new day

I hold her tight in our embrace and promise to always obey

As she walks me through hell, I will follow her lead

She is my angel of want and my devil of need

So pure in her ways and faultless to the grave

A broken soul in darkness, she shined her light and she saved

With tender arms that hold me always, I will never be alone

A mother of love and comfort forever, Ana has become my home

Reviews

[STRAND]

Long lines. I wonder if this eating disorder piece would read better as prose. One quick question, and I'm actually curious, why is the entire thing in italics?

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

There's no reason actually why it's in italics. I wanted a more feminine style font but with such a limited number of fonts to choose from, I did the best I could with what I had. I'd actually like to put it into more of a script-style font.

[RachelReaper]

Lovely evil, divine and cruel, this sounds like it could have been written as a n ancient myth, but to a completely realistic concept.

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thanks!

[Sarah G.]

The flow of the poem is really good. It's so sad and yet so beautiful. I enjoyed reading it. :)

[Sarah G.]

Could you please read and leave a comment and rating on my poem, 'The Lonesome Dark'? Thanks. :)

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thank you :) And yes, I will.

[Brielle Cartny]

So sad!

[Ahmad Cox]

Amazingly beautiful and surreal

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thank you so much :)

[Cerise]

very touching..a beautiful flow through out..keep up the good work..:)

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thanks :)

[Alexa Tasch]

very deep and emotional. I loved every word of it. It flowed so well and was just awesome. Great write!!

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thanks so much!

[afra]

wow very deep and powerful ....i love it ...well done

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thank you!

[Allycat]

this is such a wonderful piece. Everything you write flows so nicely, and has lots of meaning behind it. I really love your writing style, I have not come across one poem that I haven't found amazing. Excellent job on this poem!

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Aw, thank you so much!! =)
That means a lot to me! I truly appreciate it.

[Kelsey]

This truly just blew my mind, it's so amazing. I know a few people that struggle or have struggled with anorexia; some refer to themselves as an Ana sister. It's such a sad thing, and such a helpless feeling knowing you can't pull them out of it. It's something that really captures a person, and you did a wonderful job of showing that.

[Whitney Kleinhuizen]

Thank you!! :)
And yes, eating disorders are heart breaking things to not only for someone themselves to personally struggle with but also watching a friend or loved one battle with it as well. Let alone it's such a secretive, inner battle that it's hard for people to help.