Loving You Is Easy When Losing You Is My Only Choice

Drug Addiction ruins love and family. I grew up watcing it affects

Loving you is easy, when losing you is my only choice.

I could remember loving you when I no longer heard your voice.

Together we were horrible, and hate was always on my mind.

Sometimes, just being in your presence made peace harder to find.

Then, two years ago, you left me here, and I woke up from a fever dream.

I no longer felt angry, and my thoughts became peaceful instead of mean.

Now I remember you fondly and realize that you wanted me to improve.

I made you a villain, and there was nothing you could ever say or do.

Addictions forced me to focus on my failures instead of my truth.

I wasted my time fighting you while losing my health and my youth.

I hurt the one that loved me and helped me more than I helped myself.

I pushed away the woman who gave me her love, life, and self.

I hope your life is better and you have found someone who treasures you.

I pray that you forgive me because my apology is heartfelt and true.

Loving you is easy now that I see things without drugs and hurt in my life.

I pray I find someone that will love me with the kindness of my first wife.

Author's Note

I wrote this in reflection of growing up in a house affected by drug addiction. I lost my Dad to its affects.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Me too Eddie.
"I hurt the one that loved me and helped me more than I helped myself.
I pushed away the woman who gave me her love, life, and self."
Most of us learn too late. We had everything we needed and didn't hold on. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Ciara]

So sorry to read about your father in the author note.
You've captured the ugliness of addiction as well as the hopefulness of recovery