Autistic She

A piece from 2013

The faulty dusk was sprinkling his water
      on the armor of the road.
I was autistic,
   a deceased body,
     nurtured by scenery,
I felt his rain.

My emotions, 

   were avoiding the social weather.
and my behavior
    was talking to the traumatic vision.

My numb feelings were laughing alone,
and the euphoric tears were crying out loud.
I was dead an era ago.
but my chirpy presence is still alive.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I love every single word of this. I've never seen anyone display the quirks of the mind with such spunk & panache. I am bipolar, but sometimes I'm so intensely unsocial, I feel as if I could be on the autism spectrum. You illustrate the uncharted swerves my mind/mood takes as a bipolar that rapid-cycles. One reason I prefer to be alone is becuz I can't relate to most people who live typical lives. I am a million miles from the things most people chatter about. I just keep getting more & more "out there" as I age & this poem makes this feel beautiful instead of weird (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[moog-drika]

Aww I am so glad to know how this write made you feel. You are truly beautiful inside out and I love the way you are and think about certain stuff. That's why I enjoy your poems and even love to read twice.
Although I'm more of a social person, but I too find myself far from the things people talk about. Traits of an ambivert haha.
As for this write, I'd say it was kinda challenging for me to write about such theme, I wanted to keep it simple but expressive. But your review gave me a big relief. Thanks so much for such a beautiful feedback.

[Gaurav]

Some difficult lines but capturing the essence of the issue with grace...mind is a tough guy to crack and it goes in infinite direction...when one's body and mind differs in opinion a contradiction, beautiful yet, happens...thanks for sharing...a much needed piece

[moog-drika]

hahaha mind is surely a tough guy to crack. Thank you so much for this interpretation. It made me view the write differently. Thanks again :D

[Gabby The GAB]

I love how the construction of the last 4 lines contradicts to how the other lines were written, really was an autistic one.

[moog-drika]

Thanks so much. Wrote it down around 7 years back and it was pretty difficult to put all the feelings in this piece.

[Unspoken poet]

I just loved that last stanza, This is so deep, much enjoyed this

[moog-drika]

Thank you so much for the praise. It means a lot

[.]

I'd only want to say, they are some of the earthly angels and living hopes for others, full of innocence and no hate ...is the strongest weapon they have to defend themselves from us the cruel so called humans.

[.]

And "She'd' always be "She"...no title of something she hasn't chose for herself. It's a great poem. Thanks for sharing!

[moog-drika]

I totally agree. They give us so many lessons about humanity while being in their very own world. Thank so you much for your thoughts and compliment. They truly made my day.

[.]

Aw! I'm so glad. They are in the same world with equal right to live in

[Leslie Philibert]

Like this, my son was autistic, but has sadly been missing for two years. This poem captures the difficult, fragmented world of autism, well done!

[moog-drika]

Thank you so much for the praise Sir. It means a lot.
I sincerely pray and hope you find your son soon. I'm sure he misses you as much as you do.

[light and ashes]

Interesting....
All of your poems are..they are never lacking in depth or complexity.

[moog-drika]

Thanks so much for all the positive words. :'D
So glad it managed to stir your mind.

[light and ashes]

You're welcome!

[likhon]

It feels cathartic for some reason!

[moog-drika]

This is what nature makes us feel. Thanks a bunch :'D

[wordman]

you are one with nature and feelings of others

[moog-drika]

I guess so. Thanks so much :D

[wordman]

you`re welcome