A Story by KCthelastboyscout

love and patience

With these hands, how do I handle something so fragile? Once abused and neglected. Raped and hospitalized. A tortured past of which I cannot go back and change for HER. All we have is now and onward. Of course, there was a beginning. We were introduced. I fell in love. In the blink of an eye. I was helpless. She was quiet but always loving. We settled for kisses and holding hands. I became frustrated. I wanted more.Then came the explanation and it changed everything. How do I say I love you besides using words? How do I say I need you without making you feel pressured? How do I say I want you without touching your body that still needs healing? The remnants of bruises and scars are still visible on her body. She will never forget. Forgiveness is buried so deep inside of her there is no light that can reach it. There are late night phone calls due to recurring nightmares. Memories of the past distract her in the middle of conversations. I always announce my presence beforehand when she is not expecting me. Occasionally when we disagree I keep my demeanor calm never volatile. There are other precautions that I take because although she's getting better each day, there is no deadline for a broken heart to get better. She will never trust anyone completely again. Never give anyone her heart fully. Never love again without restrictions. But I accept it. Because I love her. I know there should be more of an explanation than that, but I just do. Now and always.Someday the healing will end. We will show that we love each other with more than just words, but also with our bodies. We will take care of each other and we will start a new life...She is in my arms. She kisses me. I say "I love you." She whispers in my ear "thank you." I smile and close my eyes... Where else in the world would I rather be?

© 2017 KCthelastboyscout

Author's Note

Dedicated to Courtney and other survivors and the people that love them

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I find this story to be very realistic. A relationship with someone who has been through trauma requires care, compassion, and patience.

I enjoyed that you managed to express the speaker's longing for more of her, without making him seem selfish. Very well done.


Posted 2 Weeks Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


This is some powerful stuff. I've no idea how real or actual it may be, but it sure feels like the real thing. A lot of folks couldn't put their own need/craving for intimacy on hold until she comes around. (Which might be a long time or even never)

Posted 1 Month Ago

Incredibly, as I read your story, I was reading my own. This is beautiful and it really hit home for me. I am in tears.

Posted 1 Month Ago

Patience indeed! You must truly love her. Your love abounds in your writing. I hope that your devotion to her and her needs are eventually rewarded to the benefit of both of you.

Take care - Dave

Posted 1 Month Ago

Wow... That was great....

Posted 1 Month Ago

This left me speechless. What a true gift to be offered so freely. You will never know what that means to a survivor. To be loved just because, no strings attached, no timeline, no expiration date on patience. I simply cannot fathom such a thing.

Posted 1 Month Ago

Oh KC, reading your words within this piece pulls strongly at my heartstrings as well as bringing tears flowing down my cheeks. I am so sorry to hear that the person you care about has experienced such brutal treatment from a past relationship. I can feel the sadness & regret deeply of not physically being with the person who holds your heart but being there to support them during the healing process probably means more to them at this point (though frustrating for you). She is very fortunate to have such a caring, loving and understanding man in her life.

Please be patient KC, for the two of you will grow and overcome the obstacles if the love is truly meant to be ... if so, it will definitely be worth the wait.

KC, please take care and try to stay dry and warm during the next few days ... can you believe that we may be seeing a little snow tonight in our area? If you see any snow please share a picture and poem about it with us my friend.

Blessings, 🙏
~ hsg

Posted 1 Month Ago

This is so amazing and the girl you are talking about is very lucky to have ou in her life

Posted 1 Month Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Imperatrix; Valence Xaeuth Idheoss

1 Month Ago

I agree with Elisa :)
Timely...with the given "Me Too" movement
I haven't see many write from the perspective of a survivor's supporter
It takes a lot to be that guy

Posted 1 Month Ago

life is full of misery but the two of you in the story will overcome it... she has been brutalized but your actual visits and physical presence will help her ... beautifully written as always.

Posted 1 Month Ago

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Added on December 6, 2017
Last Updated on December 14, 2017

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