Chapter XIVA Chapter by GhostRafe reaches the checkpoint alone and awaits Rose's arrival. And then receives a daunting message from Rathbull...Chapter XIV Burnt
Rubble “Everybody, lift your head. Stop fronting. You’re just a puppet.” -
Puppet by
Thousand Foot Crutch I was going to kill her if she didn’t keep that promise. Taking off at a sprint, I
refused to allow myself to look back after I left Rose alone in the top of the
tower. My muscles were difficult to move for the first few minutes, as if they
were fighting me and trying to go back despite what I knew I had to do "
something in me kept hesitating and slowing down at corners. My brain kept
waiting for her to pop up behind me smiling, with the job done and her safe
beside me. I knew if I went back, I’d only want to go back and drag her out
along with me. I’d just passed the alcove we’d hidden in when I heard the
booming roar far above my head. I took a moment to pause, looking back despite
the amount of servants and prisoners rushing everywhere around me. The flow of
people was almost overwhelming, shoving me around a bit as I kept trying to
focus on each face that I could, trying to spot Rose somewhere in the mess. I
kept hoping, waiting to see her. I considered waiting by this alcove " knowing
this would be the only path she’d know to take to get out " to wait for her. She was putting her trust
in me, however, to trust her judgment. Despite
every voice in my head, I had to keep going. She’d probably be furious if she
did catch up and I was waiting here for her. I kept moving despite the voice in
my chest that kept screaming at me to go back. My gut did not like the idea of
leaving her behind. I couldn’t place what it was that didn’t like it, but I
chalked it up to not liking her being on her own in general. “Damn it,” I muttered to
myself, dodging around a group of frantic people shoving and pushing. “When did
I start caring about her?” I swore as I ran out into the courtyard to find
arrows flying all over the place, watching bodies hit the ground and blood
spurt into the air. Apparently, the archers still had time to be killing
escapees even with the base coming down. Figures, they’d find some way to shed
even more blood. I took a second to look up, seeing the top of the tower
engulfed in raging flames that were slowly crawling downward. Debris would
occasionally fall from the top of the tower, pieces of the tower falling and
crushing anyone unlucky enough to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. “Caring about her wasn’t
part of the damn plan,” I ranted on under my breath. No one was listening and
there was no one who could have possibly heard in the mass of confusion and
screaming, but I kept ranting anyway. “I was supposed to help her get away and
then part ways with her a month ago, but oh no, I couldn’t keep to the damn
plan. I just had to keep finding reasons to stick around, to get closer to her.
I even tried to- Damn it, it was all so stupid!” I ran out of the gate, wincing
as an arrow ripped through the top of my shoulder. It didn’t stick me, but it
did cut me. The adrenaline high I was running on kept the pain from bothering
me and I was able to keep moving without any terrible amount of difficulty.
Another grazed my cheek not moments later but I kept running, not even checking
to see if any of the men were around me. My job was to get myself to the check
point alive and in one piece; not worry about everyone else. I leaped into the bushes,
narrowly avoiding a barrage of arrows that had been about to rain on my head.
Out of sight, I kept running as fast as I could push my legs to move. The check
point was at least a full five miles from the base, just to give everyone
involved plenty of space to lose any followers and to be sure that it wouldn’t
be easily or quickly found if the base dispatched scouts to find the men who
just burned their lovely little barrack. It only occurred to me, though, three miles into the run that Rose
might not be extremely long-winded. I only hoped that the past two weeks of
drills (during which I made her run for insanely long periods) would help her
keep the fifteen minute promise. I knew she’d be able to keep the first two and
a half miles alright, but I had my doubts about the last two and a half. I amended not to freak out
for an extra five minutes, just in case. “Such a f*****g idiot,” I swore, still sprinting and ranting even though I should have probably been saving the breath for my running. “She’s a stranger. What do you know about her? Nothing, you moron! You know nothing.” Sighing as I stopped briefly to check for followers, I sighed and admitted the truth sullenly to the air. “Not that I care.” Only Spike, John, and two
others had made it by the time I reached the check point. Admittedly, they were
part of the team that didn’t need to stay that long to get this job done. I
guessed that they had actually been there waiting on us for some time, judging
by the very bored expressions they all wore. The check point was a clearing
filled with packs of rocks. A few were taller than a full grown man, but the
clusters made a good place to rest. I liked rock clusters like this; they also
made great places to set up for ambushes. I sat on one large rock to settle in
and wait, and I took the canteen offered to me by one of the three young girls
who had waited here with a couple of armed men from the Hollow. They were here
just to have water and food ready for us when we got here. Some time later, I sat up a
bit to drain the last of my water, hoping they had enough to be passing out
seconds. I was still thirsty. After I emptied my canteen, I gently grabbed a
girl by the sleeve and asked her, “How long since I got here?” “Half an hour,” she
answered after a quick glance at her pocket watch. She went on making sure the
men were tended for. It took a few moments for
my brain to click into gear and realize what that meant, but then I realized
it; she was ten minutes over due. Swearing, I shot off my feet and started to
take off into the woods, ignoring the concerned calls of the men. I skidded to
a stop as Rose came out of the woods, panting heavily and sweating. She smiled
at me weakly, saying, “Sorry to be late; I was being followed.” Just in the way
she smiled, I felt like something was wrong, though immediately, I couldn’t see
what would be the problem. She appeared fine, other than being out of breath
and exhausted. “Did you shake them?” Spike
asked. “Yes,” she said. “That’s
what took me the extra fifteen minutes.” A bit guiltily, she added, “I didn’t
want to have to kill them, but it seems what I wanted wasn’t of concern.” She
said this slowly moving toward a cluster of rocks to sit down by. “Where’s your bow?” John
had asked that. “Um,” she began, “I didn’t
have the heart to pull out of the throat of the soldier I stuck it in.” Pausing
she amended, “Actually, I just didn’t have the energy. I liked that bow.” She moved slowly,
hesitantly, I noticed. Rose had moved toward a cluster of rocks and very
carefully, almost cautiously, lowered herself down to sit and I saw her arms
shaking under the effort of not moving too fast. My attention was deterred by a
man coming into the clearing, looking a bit pale as he said to his friend who
was running with him, “I understand your point, but how the hell would anyone
blow his head clean off like that? There was nothing but a stump!” All eyes turned to Rose.
Her hair was disheveled, her clothes were dirty and a little torn in places,
and she looked ready to settle in and not move again for three weeks. She
sipped at her canteen a bit, though, and said, “That was after I shot my last
arrow and rammed my bow in the man’s throat, okay? I either blow his head off
with a spell or be raped and murdered.” “What spell?” One of the
girls, looking white-faced and scared, had asked her with hesitant voice. The
girls seemed to be fearful of being too close to Rose, as if she had some
contagious disease from being a magic user. I didn’t know if it was my
exhaustion or that it actually bothered me, but watching them be scared of her
just pissed me off. “You really don’t want to
know,” Rose said almost casually, downing a bit more of her water. It’s when
she lifted the canteen that I saw the slash of blood bleeding through the wrist
of her tunic. “Rose,” I barked. She
jumped and looked at me tiredly; her movements were sluggish and lazy, as if
every sudden noise took a moment to translate in her brain for her to react
properly. “What’s with the cut on your wrist? That wasn’t there before.” She’d looked at me with
wide eyes for a moment but then I spoke and she relaxed again. Alarm gone, she
turned back to her canteen. “Spells like that don’t come free, Rafe; they all
require some blood. One of the men cut my wrist in a scuffle and I figured that
while the blood was flowing… might as well use it.” I moved toward her,
snapping my fingers impatiently at one of the girls as I said, “Go on, I need
some bandages.” I didn’t mean to snap at her but after my night, my patience
was thin. I was handed a small box with a kit inside and I went about cleaning
up Rose’s wrist. Rose looked almost delirious.
“I feel light headed,” she said. “How much blood have you
lost?” “From my arm,” she said in
a questioning voice, even as she giggled. “Not that much, but I feel giddy.” I started to chuckle,
thinking of the first time I’d ever lost enough blood to start getting giddy
about everything, but the way she’d almost asked about her arm worried me. My
eyes slowly moved back to hers as I demanded, “Rose, what did you mean by that?
Where else have you lost blood, if not only from your arm?” She seemed to have to think
about it before brutally pushing her hand against her stomach, almost like she
didn’t have enough control over her body to do it gently or lightly, crying out
in pain for the action almost immediately. Tears fell down her cheeks even as she
said smiling very weakly, “I’ve lost quite a bit there.” The place she’d pushed
against started to soak with blood in a line across her stomach. “How much do
you want to bet that my shift is plastered to my skin right about now?” “Damn it,” I said violently.
“I need help over here!” Rose grabbed my hand and
tugged, as if she wanted me to come closer. I leaned in closer to her as Spike
and John headed over to help me. She held my eyes as she said, suddenly sober,
“Rathbull said to tell you… He sends his regards to Black Manor.” As a couple of girls came
over to start working on the gash in Rose’s stomach, my own felt like someone
had dropped a bucket of ice directly down my throat and into my gut. It was a
heavy almost painful weight that only seemed to get heavier as the night wore
on. Only after discovering that
Rose would be fine after a couple days rest, I sent a message home by owl. I
figured that it shouldn’t have taken more than two days to get there, but by
the end of the week, I had gotten no reply. I hadn’t even said much to reply
to: “Urgent " Reply as soon as possible.”Normally, that would have brought on
an immediate response from at least Derek or Durza. Beth, even, if she saw the
message. I didn’t expect Ana would care about anything I sent home at this
point, but thinking about her hurt, so I avoided it. My thoughts whirled
between wondering when Rose would finally wake up and when I’d finally get a
reply from someone back at the manor. Rathbull sends his regards
to Black Manor. That sentence alone had
felt like a dead icy weight. What did it mean? I didn’t know. The more
questions it brought up and less answers I could find, the colder that weight
got in the pit of my stomach. I could hardly eat or sleep. I’d roll over and
wake up, then roll over again and fall back to sleep. Food all looked
unappetizing even if I hadn’t eaten for hours " even a day or two. Whatever the
phrase meant, I didn’t know. I only knew that it made me feel, for the first
time in a long time, very terrified of what might be coming. My entire body had
been numb for hours and I couldn’t think clearly, even after all the hours I
spent hopped up on adrenaline. I tried to read a book or go for a run but both
resulted in the same end. I’d slowly stopped paying attention, stopped reading
and stopped moving, and just sat there. I just… I stood, thinking, for hours. Thinking was the last thing
I needed to be doing right now. Eventually, after Day Four
of Week Two, I snapped. I had been out in hidden fields with a bunch of the
men, beating up one of the makeshift dummies used for solo-training. Out of
nowhere, I had gotten so angry that I just… went ballistic. I broke off the
fake limbs, punched its head clean off, and ripped the padding to shreds. Men
stood and watched as I completely lost my head. It took four of them to pull me
off the destroyed mannequin and calm me down entirely or at least remotely. I’d
stood there, panting heavily and bathed in my own sweat. Men who had gone into
the Barrack with me, who had watched me calmly cut through the men on the
ambush… They watched me then, unable to speak. I’d packed up my belongings
the same evening. I’d been staying at this point to see how the Barrack would
react " and as expected, they stopped bullying Meir, having no time with their
base burned down. An entirely new division came in to supervise from a
practically archaic fort six miles from town. Meir was no longer under any kind
of peril. As I’d headed for the
lifts, John had stopped me. Grabbing my arm and looking me in the eye, he’d
asked me calmly but firmly, “What do you plan to do about Rose? Do you honestly
intend to leave the girl here? She came with you.” For a long moment, I
debated rethinking taking off to check on my home but I couldn’t. I knew that Rose
would likely be furious at me and might never speak to me again, but a part of
my brain amended that the chances of me ever seeing her again were slim to none
anyway. That didn’t make it okay, but that did make me less worried about how
she’d react to me up and leaving like this. She didn’t need me to take care of
her "I knew that now. I only hoped that she did too, because I couldn’t stick
around anymore. I was going mad. I’d looked at John, put a hand on his shoulder and told him, “I’m
sorry. I know that I was supposed to keep training her in hand to hand but I
can’t anymore. Something’s wrong at home and I have to go… We knew this was
coming. She doesn’t need me around. Tell her that.” Not for the first time in
my life, I’d left without another word and without another glance backward. I hated that I had no horse
to speed my advance. I hated that I couldn’t run all day and night because my
legs refused to put that kind of effort forth. I hated that I ended up walking,
without sleep, for two and a half straight days. Sleeping wasn’t an option. I
tried. I stopped to sleep at least three times but every time, I would only lie
there awake and wonder what Rathbull had meant. I wondered how he had met Rose.
I thought about how he’d known I’d been there the other night. Somewhere in the
back of my mind, I even worried about what it would mean for Rathbull to know
that Rose was a friend to me. The walking was the worst.
I spent it thinking. By the time I got close to home, I’d come to hate thinking
" or just random thought. I wanted to bash my head into walls so I’d stop. Along the lines of my walk,
I managed to think of positive things. My mind focused on the lush green grass
that surrounded the Manor. I thought about the smell of freshly cooked bacon and
sausages, accompanied by pancakes and steaming coffee with milk and a small
block of chocolate melted into the brew. Evenings with roasted beef and
buttered biscuits, long days in the back yard, watching the young servants
chase the dogs, running from Ana as she chased me and Derek playing tag, hiding
all over the damn Manor on Saturday afternoons to irritate Durza, doing the
obstacle course in the west courtyard, days in the nursery when Ana was a girl
as the nanny read stories, parties I didn’t understand the purpose of spent
throwing raisins at guests with Derek and Ana, balls danced away with pretty
girls all filled my mind. I could even see the halls around me, covered in
large portraits and paintings, weapons too aged to use but too valuable to get
rid of and animal heads caught and killed by past Lords of Black Manor. There
was always a certain tinkle of laughter in the house, too. That house was
filled with a surprising amount of love considering the stone-faced man who ran
it. The servants all had a child or two and you could hear the serving
girls giggling as they went about their chores. The stable lads would play and
the sound of their hollers would ring through the valley Black Manor resided
in. I could hear Ana squeal when Derek and I would chase her down to tickle her
into tears. Durza’s call when it was getting dark out and bedtime was drawing
near filled my ears. I could feel Beth’s arms around me when I cried after
breaking my arm when I was eleven. The warmth of the fire at night seemed so real
on my face at that moment, thinking about being curled up on the couch with
Beth when I was sick. The sound of Ana playing the piano, such a light and
pretty sound, swelled in my chest. Thinking so much about home, I found that I’d slowed in my pace and I
was smiling. Memories of being back home had somehow quelled all the anger and
worry in my mind. I felt peaceful and sleepy. I looked up at the clouds in the
sky, deciding I wouldn’t get rained on if I went ahead and took a nap. I put my
pallet out and lie down to sleep, closing my eyes immediately. My dreams were much the same as my thoughts. I relived dozens of
memories of being a child in the Black Manor. I remembered countless afternoons
with Durza, evenings with the family, Saturdays with my foster siblings, nights
on the roof with Derek, and other things that all made me fall deeper and
deeper into my peaceful coma-sleep. I slept all night and then all day, because it was evening again when
I finally opened my eyes and looked at the sky. I could see the light of the
sun fading from the horizon in front of me, and still thinking about home to
keep my spirits up, I went back to walking. I wasn’t far now, only another mile
and then over the hill. As I came to that hill, I could only think of all the
things I was going to do when I got in the house. First, I was going to hug
Bethany and kiss Ana on the head. I’d clap Derek on the back and I’d even hug
Durza. Then I was going to ask the girls in the kitchen to make lots of hot
cocoa and sit with my foster-siblings by the fire " just to talk. The hill was
in front of me, just a few feet away. Unable to help it, I started running. What I saw over the hill could not be described in simple words. The
sheer sight of it ripped my heart out and smothered the broken pieces. My chest
felt like it was being sat on by fifty men. My lungs froze up and my heart
stopped for a full beat. I dropped my knapsack, my fingers no longer willing to
keep a grip on the straps. Everything felt cold and numb all at once. Nothing
made sense and I couldn’t move. Helplessly, I fell to my knees looking down
into the valley at what my mind couldn’t yet process or accept. I wanted to
scream but no words came out. I wanted to cry but my eyes were so busy trying
to take this in that I didn’t cry a single tear. My mouth fell open and I kept
trying to force some kind of noise " some kind of release from the pain that
constricted around my heart where everything else was numb " but nothing came.
There was no release. There was no warmth. There was no way to make the ringing
in my ears stop and no way to make breathing any easier. My chest still roared
inside as every happy feeling seemed to die slowly, and painfully. There was no
escape from the agony. I didn’t see anything, not really. I only saw the burnt rubble where there should have been a manor. © 2011 GhostAuthor's Note
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