Chapter XVIA Chapter by GhostRafe and Rose come across a couple of children - who happen to be carrying something potentially important. Meanwhile, Rafe wars on in his head over an innocent question asked by a little girl.Chapter XVI Scrolls
& A Sailor Mouth “I said I’d never let you go, and I never
did. I said I’d never let you fall, and I always
meant it.” -
Have Faith in
Me by A Day to Remember We left the cave two days later. Rose didn’t act outwardly
different, but she seemed to smile a bit easier and stuck just a bit closer.
The last night we spent in the cave, she had been staying up, telling me that
she couldn’t sleep because she couldn’t get warm. I’d offered her my blanket
and instead, she crawled over (with her blanket) and curled against me. She put
her head on my chest and scooted in close to my body. Before relaxing entirely,
she’d looked up at me with big timid eyes and asked, “Do you mind? You’re
terribly warm.” Having her close made me
smile, and I’d merely dropped a kiss on her head and wrapped an arm around her.
Even if I had minded, seeing that look in her eyes alone would have made it
okay. I didn’t tell her, positive she’d punch me like a man for it, but it was
probably the most adorable expression I’d ever seen her make. She’d fallen asleep on my
chest, completely content. That morning, my entire
right half was partially numb and I was moving slowly from the tingling pain.
She noticed and apologized, face red and eyes wide. I couldn’t even act like I
was mad, even though I had been upon waking. My body was stiff and numb while
she’d slept like a baby… but I wasn’t even the slightest bit annoyed. I sighed
and shrugged, giving her a reassuring if tired smile. “Don’t worry about it,”
I’d said. I noticed that while I was
cleaning the only pair of cups and plates we had to pack them, she went ahead
and made pot of coffee. When I walked back over to put the dishes away, she had
a mug (which I hadn’t known she had) filled to the brim with hot coffee. It was
good coffee, too. There was a surprisingly
large amount of silence despite the conversation we’d had two nights ago. I
somehow expected things to suddenly become more… affectionate or something. She
acted mostly the same. She was a little less shy about sticking close to me and
grabbed my hand instantly when she stumbled or tripped. I would steady her,
she’d smile, give my hand a squeeze, and then let go. Moving uphill, I easily
moved forward, my long legs carrying me faster than most people. I heard a yelp
from behind me and turned to see Rose wobbling. Understandably, we were walking
over a fairly thick covering of dead branches, vines, and bushes. It was the
fastest and safest way to get through the valleys without being seen. She was
paranoid of the area, though she wouldn’t admit it. I could tell that she was
afraid of her pursuers being around. I went back, grabbing her
arm firmly and almost lifting her off her feet to pull her free of a tangle of
branches. Blushing furiously, she mumbled a thank you and I calmly commented,
“No wonder those men kept finding you before, Rose. You never take side-paths.
You stuck to the main roads, am I right?” She nodded. “That’s your problem.” “I’m not a forest-woman,
Rafe. I grew up on a damn beach,” she argued, grinning despite herself. Seeing
that she wasn’t going to be able to untangle herself, I lifted her clean off
her feet and carried her bridal-style up the rest of the hill. When I set her
down, she skittered a bit away, as if a bit afraid of the closeness suddenly.
Seeing that I’d noticed, she muttered, “I’m sorry.” “If you don’t want me to touch you, just say so,” I managed calmly,
though I was a bit offended. She shook her head, stepping back toward me. “That’s not it,” she
said very firmly. “That’s not it at all, Rafe. It’s not even close.” I let her
go on by keeping my silence. She bit her lip but then said, “I’m just skittish
sometimes, is all. I don’t mean to be… It’s just something that happened when I
was younger.” I cut her off, signaling silence when I heard a branch snap. In an
under tone, I asked, “How did you keep yourself hidden during the raid back at
the Hollow?” “I used this thing called glamour,” she replied in a similarly low
voice.
“Do it now, Rose,” I ordered.
“What? Why?”
“Do it.” Just like that, she
disappeared before my eyes. I could sense that she was still close and
muttered, “Hide high for a little bit, alright? Don’t come down until I tell
you.” I couldn’t see any reason to think she’d listened but suddenly her breath
was in my ear. “Be careful,” she whispered. I felt
the warmth of a body I couldn’t see and the soft brush of lips against my
cheek. “I’ll cover you from the trees.” She gave my hand a quick squeeze and
then I heard her retreating steps as she headed for the trees.
Hands ready on the hilts of my swords,
I looked around at the wood line, trying to get a bead on what or who was
watching me. I heard another twig snap and whirled to look at the bush to my
left. Firmly, I ordered, “Come out with your hands in plain sight.” I didn’t
get any response within a full thirty seconds, so I pulled a knife from my belt
and said, “Come out with your hands where I can see them or I’ll throw it. I
don’t miss.”
Immediately, a boy came out looking
scared out of his mind. I put the knife up but kept one hand on a hilt as I
asked, “What are you doing, lad? You know, sneaking about is going to get you
killed if you keep getting caught.” Shaking visibly, he said, “I was given
this scroll and told not to let a single soul see me. If he finds out that I
failed, he’ll kill me and my sister.” At the mentioning of this sister, a
little girl no older than thirteen crawled out of the bush. Rose had ignored my
order to stay hidden and came out at the sight of children; I’d noticed at the
Hollow that she had a soft spot for children.
The girl was older, as the boy looked
about ten. She reached into her skirt pocket and produced a scroll, saying,
“Take the damn thing.” The boy started to balk but she cut him off, “Tommy, if
we give it to these people, they can do whatever they want with it. I don’t
care what that man threatened. We’re two kids in the biggest country of the
world. He’ll never really be able to find us.” The girl held out the scroll and
Rose hesitantly took it from her, handing it to me. I looked at the scroll and
all amusement at this faded. “Who gave you this scroll?” The girl
didn’t seem scared by my sudden change in mood but the boy did. “He said to call him Lord Rathbull.
I’d rather call him Rat-S**t. He took us up off the street and refused to feed
us for days until we agreed to go on a little messenger trip for him,” she
spat. “I asked a dozen times what made it so impossible to just send a few of
his men! Apparently, children are less suspicious.” Rose put a hand on my arm and
murmured, “Peace, Rafe.” She crouched in front of the children, touching the
girl gingerly on the cheek as she said, “Have either of you had a decent meal
recently?” The girl, holding the hand of her
little brother, shook her head and said calmly, “Not in two days, ma’am. We had
some berries and a couple of apples, but that was all we could find…” Rose, being the woman she was, smiled
tenderly and picked up the little boy. She set him on her hip and looked at me,
saying, “We need to get them something to eat.” I started to object until she
smiled very sweetly at me and insisted, “We should camp here for the night and
I should go hunting for dinner, comrade. These two can help you set up camp.” Twenty minutes later, she’d sent the
kids off to get some wood for a fire. The second they were out of the earshot,
I turned to her and argued, “We are not lugging kids around, Rose.” Fierce, she growled, “I will not allow
you to leave two defenseless children out here in the middle of the woods.” She
was a little scary the way she stood in my face and ordered, “I’m going to grab
my bow and get us something to eat. You stay here with the children until I get
back.” Wanting to argue the point, I
suggested, “Why don’t I go? I can take your bow, and you can stay here? I mean,
there might be highwaymen out there.” I was honestly concerned, and she
could see that, but she didn’t relent on the idea. “Rafe,” she said softly. She
smiled at me, fierceness relented. “We’re not adopting them. I just want to
take care of them until we get them to a town; someone to take care of them.” I
was never very good with kids, and I turned away in frustration. It wasn’t that
I disliked children; it’s that I never really knew how to be one, so talking to
them was difficult. Bethany always used to tell me that until I learned how to
talk to children, being a father isn’t something I should try. “Children just…aren’t my forte. I’m
not very good at dealing with them, that’s all.” Shifting nervously, I added,
“Derek used to laugh at me for scaring them.” The thought of Derek made my
chest feel heavy and my stomach cold. She wrapped her arms around my neck
and hugged me tight. I wrapped an arm around her waist in return, my mind
fuzzed with the memories. She seemed to know and just dropped a kiss on my
neck, saying softly, “I won’t be gone for long. If you let them, you might find
that children have a wonderful power to make you smile.” She looked me almost
sadly in the face and whispered, “I’d really like it if you would smile.” The look on her face almost made me
smile all on its own. I brushed a lock of hair from her face and my finger
brushed her cheek, making her look up at me with big eyes. “Rose,” I murmured
softly, not even really sure why I said her name at all. She seemed to vaguely
wonder, but didn’t really worry about it. Without even thinking, I cupped her
cheek in my hand. Of course, the moment I was about to
kiss her, we hear a chorus of teasingly disgusted noises coming from the brats.
Sighing, I hung my head a moment and I heard Rose laugh softly, and I found
myself smiling despite the ruined moment. “See,” I told her in an undertone.
“Having kids around isn’t so great.” She kissed my cheek and pointed out,
going over to her pack and grabbing up her quiver and bow, “I’ll remind you, comrade
that the moment wouldn’t have come without us meeting them today.” Before I
could reply, she came back over to me and smiled, saying softly with a grin,
“You’ll just have to try again another time.” I grinned a bit and suggested, sliding
my hands around her waist and pulling her in as I spoke, “I could try again
now.” Being cruel, she let me get so close
as to be almost kissing her before whispering, “You could, but the moment’s
gone.” I sighed, hanging my head as she laughed at my pain. She kissed my cheek
again and headed for the trees. She looked at the children and said, “Why don’t
you get to know each other? I’ll be back soon.” The girl caught my attention, grinning
intelligently as she teased, “You don’t like kids.” “I’m not very good with them,” I
admitted. “I spent my childhood learning how to string bows and keep my blades
sharp.” The boy found this awe-inspiring but the girl just put her hands on her
little hips. She was cute for a little kid. She had
long dark brown hair with loose curls. Most girls at thirteen didn’t have pale
skin or the evidence of womanhood just yet, but she did. Her bright hazel eyes
were smarter than I would have expected from a thirteen year old girl. Her
brother had the same eyes, a bit more of a tan, and absolutely no signs of
maturing. He had sandy blond hair and an innocent roundness in his face. The
girl gestured to the boy and said, “His name is Tim. He doesn’t talk much, but
he’s not a bad kid.” She was obviously used to taking care of him; the sheer
tone of her voice told me that. This girl didn’t see herself as a child and I
imagined treating her like one would only serve to anger her. “Hello Tim,” I greeted, unable to help
grinning at the way she stood with such command. This girl would be a pistol
when she got older. It took me a second to realize that Rose had been right;
children did have an uncanny ability to make me feel better. Tim waved at me shyly while the girl
introduced herself, “My name is Megara, but my friends call me Meg. At least,
they would, if I had any friends.” She shrugged and skipped lightly over to
what would be the center of the camp, looking up at me and saying, “Should we
get this fire going or what?” By the time Rose returned, Meg and Tim
were on the floor roaring with giggles and laughter. I hadn’t found the
strength to laugh yet personally, but I felt warmed at the sight of their
unbridled mirth. Meg reminded me of Ana but that only made it harder to laugh,
despite the hilarity. They were being ridiculous, really. We’d ask each other
questions and typically, Meg would answer sarcastically or I would. Tim,
finally opening up, would say one thing; and the laughter would get worse. Rose saw the children laughing on
their backs and smiled, shaking her head as she dropped the doe by my feet.
Heaving a sigh of relief, she told me, “It’s your turn to gut dinner. I’m
taking these two to clean up.” I pulled my knife out and almost set to work,
but then decided to wait until she’d taken the kids to the river " I didn’t
think showing them what a little doe looked like on the inside would do
anything good for them. Tim grabbed Rose’s hand as soon as she
set her bow and quiver down, grabbing up her pack. She tossed it over her
shoulder and accepted the little hand, smiling when Meg grabbed the other. The
beaming smile on Rose’s face made me smile a bit myself. She seemed to really
love children. They left and I started the gutting,
hoping to done before they got back. Tim and Meg were clean and I noticed
that Rose had given Meg one of two shirts she’d stolen from me, while Tim wore the
other. Both kids were positively drowned in my large shirts. Rose had a white
sack that was dripping wet and I noticed that Rose, being the free spirit she
was, hadn’t bothered to wear anything other than her chemise. I shook my head,
turning the meat and saying with a sigh, knowing I’d be living on this shirt
from now on, “Take my last shirt, you silly woman. You can’t run around like
that.” She grinned and produced my shirt from
behind her back, “I was wondering if you’d approve.” I actually laughed then
and her smile turned way up. She put on my shirt, which covered her a bit
better than the chemise alone. Her hair was still damp and hung messily around
her face as she went about tying up a line from one tree to the next, and then
hanging the wet clothes on them. Tim and Meg were both sitting on one
of the logs I’d pulled up to sit on, and I took off my shirt to avoid them
noticing the amount of doe blood I’d splattered on myself earlier. As I went
about turning and seasoning the meat again, Meg dropped a random question. “Rafe,
are you in love with Ms. Rose?” I paused, slowly turning to look at
Rose, who’d turned to look at me in the middle of tying up the wet laundry. I
looked back at the meat I was tending and said softly, “I care about her very
much, Meg.” “That’s not what I asked,” she said
intelligently. Something in her eyes seemed to be searching for a completely
different answer to a question she hadn’t asked, but I didn’t know what it was.
“Do you love her?” Looking at her calmly, I told her, “I
met Rose a little under two months ago, Meg.” Rose helped me by adding, “Things have
happened in that time. Rafe and I have only recently discovered we like each
other. I think it’s a bit early to toss that word out.” Meg seemed deeply upset, demanding of
Rose, “Do you think you two could come to love each other?” Lost, I looked to Rose. Rose waved me
off and went to the upset girl, crouching as she said softly, “Meg, I promise
you that one day, you’ll watch love happen in your own life. It will happen.
Don’t base that possibility on us. It doesn’t happen in a week or even a month;
real love takes time.” The girl looked sadly at her and said,
“My dad never loved Mom. He left her to fend for herself in this house of other
women.” She glanced nervously at her brother and hinted, “It was a house that
men only visited.” Rose and I both understood and nodded
to ourselves. Meg’s mother had been a courtesan and her father was a customer.
Softly, I told her, “I can relate, Meg. I never knew my parents.” “My dad came to visit my mom lots,
until she got pregnant with me. Then he wouldn’t talk to her for a whole year.
After awhile, he came back, but then a couple years later, she got pregnant
again " and mom was really angry.” Little tears fell down the girl’s cheek and
my heart broke for her. “She used to beat me, because Tim was too little to be
hitting.” Tim ran over to me as I sat back on the log behind me and buried his
face in my chest without a word. I just put my hand on his back and let him,
reminded of the moments where Bethany would do the same thing when I’d cry.
“She used to beat me real good, too.
She’d tell me that it was our fault that Dad hated her. Whenever he’d come to
visit, he’d stay with the other women instead of Mom. That’s when she’d be the
meanest. She wouldn’t feed either of us and then she’d beat me. She never beat
Tim, just me.” Pausing, she amended, “She tried to beat Tim, but I’d call her
some dirty word I’d hear the men saying and she’d get mad at me instead.”
Rose picked up Meg, holding her in her
lap as she sat on the log. “You protected your little brother,” she confirmed.
Meg just nodded. “You’re a good big sister.”
After we ate, Rose put the kids to bed
in her pallet, which was big enough for both the small bodies. She sat with me
and we idly chatted for a bit before she tried to subtly cover up a yawn. I
grinned and told her, “Sleep in my pallet tonight. I’ll catch a nap when you
wake up.” She kissed my cheek (as she seemed to
like doing at every chance) and stood, going over to my pack and unhooking my
pallet. She laid it out and slipped in, sighing as she settled. “Goodnight
Rafe,” she said softly. “Goodnight, comrade.” I held the scroll in my hands, turning
it over and debating what to do with it. Reading it crossed my mind but I didn’t
know what I’d do with the information when I did read it. If it was a message
to another barrack about the raid, then Meir might be in danger still after
all. I’d have to turn back and go warn John and Spike. It might just be a
status report to someone higher up. I sat there, staring at the seal of the
scroll. The seal actually belonged to the
King, which concerned me. It was from Rathbull, but it bore the So-Called King’s
seal. What did that mean? For some reason, I was hesitant to open it. I couldn’t
recreate the seal once I broke it without a professional con. I vaguely
wondered if Rose could reproduce it with a spell or something but the idea
sounded as silly as it seemed so I dismissed it.
Aggravated, I mimed throwing the thing
into the fire for my own amusement. It helped a little but not much. Sighing, I
tucked it into my pack and sat with my back against the log, near Rose and my
blades. I watched her sleep for a time. The peace in her face was enough to
make me jealous of how calmly she slept.
Then I thought of Meg’s question from
earlier. Did I love her? I thought for a long, long time. It’s like my brain
and everything else went dead silent in anticipation of the answer. I decided
to resort to the pathetic but effective means of making a list of cons and pros
to this question. Then that answer didn’t work and I realized I’d have to
actually… feel things about it. Feeling things was difficult. That
meant I was invested and I cared. I’d already evidenced how much caring about
something could hurt. Losing my entire life in a second showed me that caring
about anyone would likely lead to a lot of pain. My chest still ached and today
had been the first laugh I had in weeks " and even it had felt a bit forced. I
found myself smiling just to keep Rose from worrying, and to keep that smile on
her face. “Damn it,” I muttered with
realization. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, ignoring hard bark on my
back. Shaking my head, I looked back at Rose and whispered. I knew she wouldn’t
hear me and I knew that she was asleep. My mind didn’t like the idea,
especially in light of recent events, but I didn’t feel I had any choice in the
matter at this point. I was invested. I cared. It mattered to me, whatever
happened to her. Her well being and keeping a smile on her face had somehow
become priority over even getting a damn night’s sleep. I didn’t like using the word for it,
but I’d never felt the need to cradle anyone to my chest and just keep them
there. I’d never had the violent urge to rip muscle from bone like I had when
Erin slapped Rose. Before Rose, I didn’t believe smiling was infectious. Women
couldn’t be fierce and strong like her before. Seeing her pull back the string
of a bow and hit the mark, better than some men, made me feel confident that
while I felt the need to anyway, protecting her really wasn’t always necessary.
Mornings in the cave where I’d wake up with my head in her lap, I felt like the
day was already brighter. Every time she kissed my cheek, the urge to smile was
almost painful. I can remember the way I felt helpless and weak when I’d see
tears well in her eyes " and the way it broke my heart when she’d swallow,
force them back, and pretend to be okay. However, she was also insanely
difficult. She almost never shut up and she was so damned stubborn. With the
mouth of a sailor and attitude to boot, I found that there wasn’t any good way
to tell what in hell she’d try next. She didn’t listen, she was opinionated, and bull-headed, and never knew
when to be scared, loved to push my buttons (knew how to push my buttons),
always had a comeback I couldn’t really argue against, refused to let me
protect her when she needed it, and so damned mouthy… but I couldn’t help it.
“I love you, Rose.” © 2011 GhostAuthor's Note
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