Entry Six: Realization

I just got off the phone with Eric. I’ve decided that the situation was almost completely like this. Ever have it when you hate someone because you think they hate you and they hate you because they think they hate you, and you both actually like each other?

 

I do kind of understand what he was trying to say. But he says that it’s all over between us. We aren’t in conflict anymore.

 

It’s probably true that this incident is over, but the whole problem isn’t cured. We both have problems that we have to work on. And now that Eric has given me a better idea of what I need to work on, I can work on pulling out my beam and then help him pull out his mote.

 

I guess right now I will just act like them and pretend like nothing ever went wrong.

 

I wonder how long that will last.

 

But I still believe that my friends are drifting. Our friendship knot feels slightly weakened from this. It may seem like it should be the opposite, but it’s not. It feels like Eric, Amanda, Jamie and Mariah are on one side of the tug-of-war rope and I’m on the other. And they’re winning. I don’t know how long I can hold out.

 

Reviews

[Letiel Naynarou]

Interesting that you think of friendship as a game of tug-o-war. A game like that suggests conflict and that one side is dominant over the other. Do you want to win? What if they are sore losers you can't expect to win friendship by winning a game that asserts dominance. Will you be the leader?

[turtlegirlluver]

I can't wait to read more and see how the situation turns out. You are very talented in showing emotions and the tone of voice is perfect. Anxiously waiting for more!