Sink or Swim

Every once in a while I just write in no particular format, don't edit hardly anything and post it. Just raw thoughts. These came as I was sitting on my porch thinking all alone.

If I could capture this moment... this time of my life, it would probably look something like a statue of a broken man... blunt in hand and a beer in the other staring up at passing clouds that turn to a clear night and stars wondering where do I go from here? How do I move forward with life? Right now I'm slowly deteriorating like decaying wax in a candle jar and my life is melting before my eyes. I've got to get up and do something with myself instead of wondering how to categorize these thoughts of mine. Even the small ant that slowly crawls up my leg as I write this is chasing a bigger dream than I.... the ant thinks about reaching the top as I observe and wallow in self-pity and wonder what could have been. Well.... what can become? It’s time to get up and grasp a dream and start chasing with a full head of steam. I just hope I don't hit the ground too hard when I fall... but I will get back up and keep chasing that dream because in life we sink or swim and I've already sunk to the bottom... all that's left is to lightly tread back to some familiarity.

Author's Note

Let me know your thoughts please :)

Reviews

[Luna]

I love all the imagery, it's like I'm there with you, sinking except, well it's never too deep. I haven't reached the bottom, or I have and I'm okay with it? So what if we have dreams in life, and what is next for us after we've reached our goals, Life is pointless no matter how big or small our dreams are. Sinking in the void that is left by this life we had no word in is only natural, we don't know what we are doing here, it's an endless circle, dreaming and feeling like we could fly, then losing hope and sinking to the bottom of despair, either way, it's absurd.

[AaronFreitas]

You make a great point Luna :) Sometimes you are damned at the top and damned at the bottom... I guess it becomes about finding what makes you happy as a person... and that I am still searching for. Thanks for your review :)

[Destiny Dreamer]

OUTSTANDING! OMG! I can totally relate myself to your thoughts, believe it or not, I had these thoughts many many times. WOW! I am just shocked. Awesome write. Your words, your thoughts are just like Deep deep thoughts of a Poet.. Great work dear Poet. Thanks for sharing such a nice piece of work. Love it :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Dreamer... I always appreciate and enjoy reading your comments and reviews :) You made my dad with your compliments :)

[Destiny Dreamer]

Your deserve them. You are WELCOME! :) :D

[Destiny Dreamer]

Oops it's "You*"

[AaronFreitas]

haha thank you my friend :)

[Irenic]

an aquarium of thoughts! Amazing thoughts.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you irenic :) I like doing these writes and just sharing what goes through my mind sometimes :)

[Saddam]

Struggle means to be a good result. Go on with this...
Never give up.
but I will get back up and keep chasing that dream because in life we sink or swim and I've already sunk to the bottom... all that's left is to lightly tread back to some familiarity.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Saddam :) appreciate your review my friend :)

[closed]

marvelously introspective for something that came about while you were merely sitting on your front porch Aaron

i love introspection, and use it alot as a device myself in my writings

as for the message itself
i think this quote helps

''when youre at the very bottom, there's nowhere to go but up''


thanks for sharing this
it's inspiring in its own way


-Dream

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Literary Artist Dream :) I enjoy just breaking from any format and just writing what comes to my head... it's fun :)

[closed]

i know what you mean
i'm always trying new things with my writing

and i get inspired by others when i see them try something new

[Pushkar Prabhat]

great as far as writing is concerned..........sad that this seems personal.......
unfortunately i am in a similar place........
maybe we are never supposed to reach anywhere........maybe we are supposed to just get up everything and keep on......
the ambiguity is painful........but does make this interesting.....
:)

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks buddy... I think I tend to crawl there at times to that dark place and usually writing about it helps. Plus I like the dark style... it makes for good writing :) Thank you Pushkar

[Pushkar Prabhat]

i like the darkness too........always a pleasure Aaron!!! :) :)

[wordman]

hard times,lord i`ve had a few so i can relate,great write

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks buddy I appreciate your review :) You are a true friend :)

[Tori]

I really like this because at one point in every life there is a time a person goes through this. You will always either sink or swim and my whole life I have fought against sinking to only find my self swimming for the top again.

[AaronFreitas]

It is a good analogy and one that I am glad you can relate to... sometimes we find ourselves at the bottom but as long as we don't settle to sink we can continue to fight :) Thanks for the review Tori I appreciate it :)

[Tori]

No problem I love your writing:)

[Dr. Wood ?]

that'll do for me

I struggle though with poetry written in prose..I mean.....WHICH IS IT?

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Dr. Wood... honestly I just write... first I had it as a story and someone said it was prose poetry so I changed to poetry. On this piece... I just wanted to write what I felt didn't write for a specific anything even though I know I have to categorize it. Thanks for leaving a comment :)

[Emily]

I think this is some of your best work, Aaron! Great job! I especially love the line, "...I observe and wallow in self-pity and wonder what could have been. Well.... what can become?" Beautiful and powerful!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Emily :) I'm glad you like that line it was an important one in this write. Thank you for your continued support and feedback :)

[Emily]

No problem! You're a great writer.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you so much... brought a smile to my face :)

[Rana]

For raw thoughts, these are diamonds. The words shine with your emotions and your creativity. I smiled when I got to the part about the ant as I could relate comparing myself to any insects I could find around while I typed while depressed. We feel really worthless at times, and then there are those other times too when we feel good about ourselves. We can't be in the same state of mind all our lifespan. What you captured in here is like a pre-jumping phase if I may call it so. You see you're going to be lost completely if you don't make a jump out of the state. The good things here are that you realize your position, you resent it and you know what you want to do. Grasp a dream. I wish you a happy and successful chase, Aaron.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Rana :) I like the ant part too and it was something completely random... I actually was sitting in my chair on my porch writing into my phone when the ant started crawling on me so I added that in and just went with it. Appreciate your feedback my friend :)