chapter 12 the sleep over

Yeah it was jake says I can't wait to take off this dress I say I can help you evan says shut up jake says make me evan spits out I run to their house jane! Yells sammy you can get washed up and change in makes room she says as I run up to jakes room I get washed up and put my pjs and open the door.he pushes me back into his room and tells me to sit on his bed. Jane he asks yes? I say

Why did you kiss me why do you wink at me why did you pick those songs oh I say laying down on his bed I thought you preggent or something JANE YOUR DIVING ME INSANE JUST TELL ME WHY DO YOU HAVE THIS?!?! hes holds up the poster he looks at me what? I ask oh forgett it he says I brab him by the arm and tell him to sit on the bed do you want the truth all of the truth? I ask yes he says 

I will start from the begining and before I start I want you to know I'm sorry he looks at me almost crying 

When I was little austin and me were best friends and jane loved him she would bully me becuase he liked me. And becuase of this he promised he wouldn't let anyone hurt meaustin was the first person I had a crush on

In middle school 

we spent are lasts days just holding hands back to back until jane came and asked him to be her boyfriend he turned her down she came running to me hitting me yelling "I hate you eilza jane andams and your stupid name if I can't have the one I love i can't have the love then you cant have the one you love I.e you i say and stop to see his face his eyes are big and filling up with tears go on he says so I do so. 

Austin moved and I haven't seen him since he moved back. In high school I meat you and shortly after I losted it and I wasn't in school for a bit when I came back jane started bulling me again the morning after I walked in on you two I went to school before everyone I heard jane  talking to a young guy oh sweety I swear I will dump jake as soon as the stupid girl is out of the way in the mean time help me post these on the lockers jane says when I try and stop them the young man calls me a runt and runs at me full speed I quickly move out of his was and trip him he comes at me again and then I flip him to his back then I took each poster and then jane said I would wish I hadnt done that i said maybe so and stuffed the posters in my bag and then you mom called me to see if I was ok after last night when she came to hug me she tripped on my bag and spilled it and she saw the posters thinking I  made them then she asked why I would do that to you I yelled at herhow dare you think I would do such a thing I temples and ran out crying when evan stops me and I cry into his cheast for an hour or so and I tell him what happened then I was going head home austin asked evan if you knew me and that's it I said hugging him I'm sorry jake I say he looks at me tears running down his face its your fult he yells I get out of the room and go down stairs to see them all listening I think I broke jake.... I said mrs handsons hugs me and says he will be fine over time evan just smirk didn't you say it had to be someone he trust and loves to tell him? Yes I did but if I waited for you to be a good brother he would be crazy so I told him by the way he didn't like the first song chose you picked mom?!?! You picked the two love songs no I picked gone gone gone she picked the other one I like the song and it fit well I said with a smile 

(jake's pov) no way no my life sucks Jake shup up 

Jane life sucks more then yours wait do you hear that? Evan says what I asks

Its jane singing she has a great voice huh? Let's go see what song is that

We go down stairs and she is playing her guitar and singing    Weep for yourself, my man,

You'll never be what is in your heart

Weep little lion man,

You're not as brave as you were at the start

Rate yourself and rake yourself,

Take all the courage you have left

Wasted on fixing all the problems that I made 

(chorus)

But it was not your fault but mine

and it was your heart on the line

I really mess it up this time

Didn't I, my dear? didn't i my

Tremble for yourself, my man,

You know that you have seen this all before

Tremble little lion man,

You'll never settle any of your score

Your grace is wasted in your face,

Your boldness stands alone among the wreck

now learn from your mother or else I spend your days biting

your own neck

(chorus 2x)

But it was not your fault but mine

and it was your heart on the line

I really mess it up this time

didn't I, my dear? (second time) didn't I my dear?

ah ah (multi)

(chorus)

But it was not your fault but mine

and it was your heart on the line

I really mess it up this time

didn't i my dear?

But it was not your fault but mine

and it was your heart on the line

I really mess it up this time

didn't i my dear?

 

It seems like she is sing to you jake evan says as she puses me in the room she gives me a warm smile and I just sit on the couch next to her and put my head on her lap she just plays with my hair and tells me she's sorry I fell asleep like this i guess she did to because when I woke up she was asleep