Prone To Bad Days

Another crappy day I suppose, I’ll have to go through seemingly endless hours of awkward chit chat and not knowing where to sit and who to sit with.

My last school was better than this, at least people talked to me or invited me to sit with them, I mean yeah in the end they ended up all being psychopaths but they were just easier.

Even if that would mean having to go back to NNN, the girl that ruined everything, the reason I’m stuck here. 

Enough about NNN, I have two pages dedicated to my hatred towards her, I mean she only did just ruin my life.

I miss her though, and I miss her constantly saying she was going to kill herself, I miss her crying all the time and me having to comfort her, it made me feel important, like I meant something to her.

Things always go as they do, they either don’t work at all or they work a little bit, so this school will either be horrible or it will be alright.

I don’t know what my favorite colour is, my favorite animal is, nor what my preferred music genre is, f*****g identity crisis haha.

I’m not too bothered by it, just a bit annoying. 

I like this whole thing I decided to do. 

I like writing my thoughts it’s kinda helpful to let it all out, uncensored, unfiltered, un-nice proof. 

I don’t have anyone to talk about this stuff with so writing it down is pretty good. 

Maybe one day I’ll find a friend I can share this with, although I wouldn’t want to be like NNN who constantly uses pity stories to her advantage. 

A bit disappointed I gave up on my book... I feel like it was going somewhere but I got frustrated so I got rid of it. 

I like writing.

Author's Note

Yes, I am aware "un-nice" isn't a proper word.