Thought #7 - The Cruelty of My Curse

I feel so empty and I can't seem to figure out why.

Is it because I'm living out the purpose my soul aspires to? Is it because I hold no value? Is it because I have not fulfilled my purpose? The answer is simply, I do not know.

Possibly, there is no answer or explanation to this lingering emptiness but instead I must merely live out my days with this, "curse," so to speak. This provokes another thought deep in my mind.

How come those who die young, naturally that is, are always extremely content with their lives and are living great lives at that. How come those of us who desire death over all things are kept here on this horrid planet? Is this a testament to God's cruelty? It very well may be.

But yet again, I am but a clueless and lost piece of self-loathing trash who knows less of who he is than those close to him do.

Author's Note

leave whatever thoughts you desire.