ch3

I woke up to my alarm clock blaring. I sat up and looked around. I had a feeling like I was forgetting something. I ignored it, if it was important I would remember sooner or later. I grabbed my glasses, when I went to stand I almost tripped. My cat was lying next to my bed. I was paler than normal, what ever. I finished getting ready and went down stairs. No one was home. I wondered why. I grabbed my cell and looked at the date. Its Monday and I had to leave soon. I grabbed an apple, ate, then left. I got to school 10 minutes before the bell went. Alicia came over and pocked me “you look tiered” She told me. I looked at her “I shouldn’t I slept all weekend” She looked confused, I ignored it “what day is it?” I asked. She thought “day 2”

I nodded. So English first. I still had a tugging thought I had forgotten something. I looked at Alicia. “is there something happening this week?” she again thought “nothing” I sighed. In foods the feeling got worse. After school I decided to walk with amber (good one) home. The rest of that week felt weird. That weekend I was dragged to the mall. We went to sakura media and the millennium. Then it was lunch. The food court was very full. I was sent to find a seat. Suddenly all the sound was gone from the food court. I could only hear 3 voices. “dude get over it” one said. I froze. “ya you know it was the right thing to do” the second voice. I turned to the sound. “I know but it hurts” that voice cut something inside me. I couldn’t breath, but why? I saw across the court, the first 2 speakers were standing. They froze, the 2 looked at me. I took a step back. The one sitting slowly turned. Our eyes met. I still couldn’t breath. Everything got fuzzy. I remember falling but not hitting the floor. Right before everything went black all the sound came back and I heard screams and yelling.

I wasn’t awake but it seemed like it. Everything was white and there wasn’t anything else around. “remember” I spun around, no one was there. “remember” the voice was mad. I spun again, now there was a woman behind me. “remember what” I said. She seemed to understand something I didn’t. she grabbed my arms. I could feel the coolness of her skin. Several memories flashed across my mind. The white was replaced by colors. I could feel a different pair of hands hold me now. They felt familiar. The image of bring held flew across my eyes, the hands held me tighter. Then I heard the voice “do you remember” I shook my head. “I’m so sorry”  that voice cut me again but I remember the name of the person it belonged to. “if you remember go back to him, go back to where you last heard his voice” I nodded.

I woke up with several doctors around me. I ignored them. They weren’t paying attention to me. I was in room with 3 other people. I sat up, still no attention. I grabbed my clothes at the end of my bed. I changed and ran out the door and out the entrance. Why they didn’t notice, who knows.  Good thing about this area, the mall and hospital were two blocks away. I ran there, the mall had about half an hour left till closing. The woman had said to go to the last place I had heard his voice. The food court. I got there and searched. I saw him sitting alone across the court. “Damien” I said, so low I barley heard it. A woman, no, the woman walked over to him and started talking. When she pointed at me, my heart skipped. he turned to look at me, he was very mad. It hurt to see the fiery in his eyes. I took a step back. He turned on the woman, he wasn’t yelling though. When his eyes turned to me, I saw hatred in them. I ran. Threw the mall out onto the street. I kept running until I couldn’t. I noticed now it was late. I walked down the streets, not lost and scared just numb. There was a lot of police cars out tonight, I noticed one of them stopped near me and got out. He walked over to me. “miss do you have any ID on you” I didn’t look at him, but I shook my head. “can you tell me your name” my name? I felt numb, I didn’t want to talk and I have to tell him my name. it wasn’t just that I didn’t want to talk, its that at that moment I had forgotten my name, so I shook my head. “will you speak to me” I shook my head. “look at me” he said. I looked up “come with me” he grabbed my arm and pulled me to the car. I pulled back, I didn’t want reality back. But his hands were tight, he put me into the back so I couldn’t get out (easily). I noticed the whole time, from when I saw Damien to now, I had been crying. He took me to the police station. Of course my parents were there. After a doctor, female one, examined me and the police tried to get me to talk, they let me go home. 

First a week went by then two. All the while people tried to get me to talk. I hadn’t said a word since that night. After a month people stopped trying. But one weekend my friends kidnapped, not really, me and were taking me some were . It was Saturday. They didn’t make us take the bus or the sky train, they drove. I was blind folded and given an mp3 to listen to. I sat waiting. What a surprise it’s the mall. I was forced to carry the bags. We never stopped going. When they were changing I wrote a note saying I got bored and ran off. Before I knew it I was in the food court. I didn’t care anymore. I got a pop and sat near a window. About twenty minutes later I got up and went to look for my friends. Then I saw them coming towards me, I froze. Sitting at a tabled they past was Damien. He saw my friends heading in my direction. When he looked over at me he jumped up. I didn’t stay to find where he went, I ran. Down the escalators and people. I turned a corner and down a hall with no people. I hid behind a wall of boxes. Before I could sit I was grabbed and pushed against the wall.  Cool lips met mine. I gasped and pushed against him. He grabbed my arms and pulled me to him, not to kiss but to hold me. “I’m sorry” he whispered several times in my ear. “they found out and gave me 2 choices” his grip tightened. “it was leave or…” I trailed off. He nodded. I thought of a great idea, grabbed his cell. He didn’t seem to notice. I had no pockets so I put it in my belt. then I pulled away. “you hurt me” I said. He pushed the hair away from my face. “I know, I’m so, so sorry” he brought his face closer. I pulled away again “no” I said. I saw the sadness in his eyes. He nodded once and put his hands over my eyes, “I’m sorry” then he was gone. I opened my eyes, I only had a minute to get out of the area. I grabbed the phone from my belt and ran. When I got on the sky train station and left the train I felt some one watching me but it wasn’t Damien, I tried to ignore it, whatever it was it followed me home. I knew Damien wouldn’t  try to get into my house as long as my parents were home, right? Sadly they went out. Locked myself in my room and put the cell under my pillow. I was lying on my pillow staring at the ceiling when there was a scratching at my door. I sat up and unlocked it, slowly I opened it. My cat ran in then, I sighed and went back to my bed. I was petting the cat when something came into my room. Kitty started to hiss violently. my heartbeat flew. Kitty ran from my room, out the now open window. “where is it” he said, he was mad. “I’m not telling” I told him. He was beside me now “where is it” his voice was harder now. I sat there, he turned and I thought he was going for the window. I jumped up and was about to say something when he turned. My heart flew again and I fell onto him. He caught me but didn’t know what to do. My legs wrapped around his waist and his grip tightened. I pulled back and pulled him down. When our lips met both our grips on each other tightened. He pushed me up against my wall and his hands were going from my breasts to my waist. I pulled him closer, he ripped off my shirt, I pulled him closer again. My skirt didn’t last long after, then my belt was unhooked. He went for my bra next but I stopped him and grabbed his shirt, there was a low growl in the back of his throat. Suddenly  his shirt was gone and his pants. I could now feel him. He pushed me harder and harder against the wall till I had to let go of him. It wasn’t even 2 seconds when we were both naked on my bed. When he pulled back I grabbed the back of his neck and went with him. His hands traveled down my back, my back arched toward him. “you’re so beautiful” he whispered. I pulled him down, we were kissing again but more fierce. He pulled back, he said “are you sure?” I nodded. He pulled us into sitting position. I gasped at the sudden pain, I didn’t let him pull away. I wanted more. I push my self down on him. With every thrust he groaned, we got faster and faster. I looked into his eyes, we wanted the same thing: more. He pushed me down and started to thrust against me. I was taking short hard gasps. “I love you so much” he gasped. “I love you more” I said (so childish). We both fell onto the bed. He snuggled in my chest. I was so tired now, I fell asleep just lying there.

When I woke up Damien wasn’t on the bed. I looked over the side, and started laughing. He’d fallen off at some point. I poked his forehead, he opened one eye “morning” I said. He grabbed my hand and pulled me onto the floor with him. I smiled down at him. “how did you end up on the floor?” I said. He stretched “I don’t know” he sat up. I put my head on his chest. We sat there for a while. Then abruptly he jumped up, and disappeared. He reappeared with his pants on and held out a dress for me. “put it on” he said. I put it on, he turned and was walking to the window. I grabbed him, “where are you going?” I asked. He turned and brought his head down to mine. “I‘ll be back” he said with a smile. He kissed me “o.k.?” I nodded. Before he pulled away I kissed him. Suddenly my door flew open. I barley heard my mom scream. Before she got to us I whispered “meet me down the street in 20 minutes” he nodded and climbed out the window. My mom was now beside me. “what, who was that?” I looked at her “please get out of my room so I can change” she stomped out of the room. I quickly climbed onto my window, once on the roof I climbed as close as possible to the ground. I jumped down, and ran to where I was supposed to meet Damien. Then I saw his car, it stopped in front of me. I climbed in and closed the door. He drove fast, I barley had time to put the seat belt on. He didn’t let me put it on, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me to sit on him. I tried to pull away but he held me tight. “don’t move” he said. I froze, and then I felt it. Someone was following us. “who” I said. his grip tightened again. “I’m not sure” he told me. He started to drive faster. “Where are we going” I said. He didn’t answer. Suddenly the car stopped and both his arms held me.  Then we fell, I grabbed his shirt. Then it was soft, Damien loosened his grip. I pulled back, we were in a room that was very dark. He grabbed me again and turned us over “sleep” he said. His head rested against my chest and fell asleep. I got tired too and the world slipped away.