Anxiety (Poem)

Anxiety

I am the one who breaks her mind.
I am the one who breaks her heart.
My voices are the ones that bully her the most out of all the people that do

I am the one that makes her heart race
I am the one who makes her hyperventilate 
My words causes her mind to go belligerent

Yet she walks down the school halls with a smile plastered on her face as if nothing is wrong.

I am the cause of her migraines
I am the ruler of of her sobs 
I am the master of her quaking body.

Yet she attempts to hang on tight

I am the frustration the overpowers her
I am her fears
My hands program her 

Yet she still helps other people when they need it

I am the tears that streak down her face
I am the one that makes her lock herself up
I convinced her to shut herself away

Yet she desperately grasps  onto positivity

I make her think negatively 
I make her bang her head in frustration against the wall

Yet she tries to seek help.

I petitioned her to block out reality
I made her soft
I program her mouth to say, "would you consider me a friend?"

Yet she tries to socialize

I cause the hatred of herself
I formed her silence
I tell her she's not worth it
I'm the haranguing voice to everything that she does is wrong.

Yet she stands up tall most of the time.

I'm her insomnia, keeping her awake
I am who makes her question everything including her existence
I tell her she's an accident
I'm her nightmares. 

I am her programmer

Yet she tries to program me.

Author's Note

Most of the poems are based off of an emotion I was experiencing while in the process of creating them.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked this poem. A honest journey for the reader to follow. The poem had a realistic feel to it. People, life and things will control our life. Nice ending to the amazing poetry.
Coyote