Chapter 2A Chapter by lmkeck3510Governance
"Can you
feel it child?" I heard him ask me in his gentle, soothing voice. It was getting harder and harder to focus on
his words, though I knew if I didn't things would only get worse for me. I dug my hands, currently tied to the
headboard, into the paneling on the wall.
I hardly had any nails left at all on the hand, but once I opened up a
stub a shot of pain flew up my arm and cleared my mind. I felt the side
of my head go from a sharp tingle, to searing pain. I screamed out, unable to contain it any
longer. I felt a gloved hand cover my
mouth, stifling my cries before they could hit the open air. My eyes were wide, nostrils flaring, as my
body desperately tried to intake as much oxygen as possible. "Fight it
Brienne, you must fight it," he shouted to me, this time in French. I was starting to get dizzy, knowing that
soon I would be unconscious. Distantly I
heard the door to the trailer open, and in the next moment two men and a woman,
armed with crossbows, were pointing them towards Remy. They looked from his form, to my own, and
sputtered curses to each other. They talked
a bit more, not in English or French, so I couldn't understand them but their
tone was clear. The burning in my head
was spreading to my face and I let out another garbled scream, the pain getting
so intense that it came out more like a low moan. "I can't
keep it off," I managed to call out, getting scared. "Remy, step
away from her and you might be able to get out of this room alive," I
heard the woman say in perfect French, she was staring at me and I at her. "Father,
please." I pleaded with him, smelling the flesh start to burn. He was glancing wildly around the room like a
cornered mouse. He swung his gaze back
to me, reaching out with his hand right over my heart, and I screamed out when
I saw a bolt go through his chest. I woke up
sweating, legs so tangled in the sheets I could scarcely get myself untangled in
time to rush to the bathroom. I threw
myself in front of the toilet and vomited up my late night snack. "Brienne?"
I heard JP call out from the doorjamb. "I'm
okay," I told him holding up a hand when he tried to approach. "You should
try those pills again," he suggested playing with his long brown hair that
was sticking up in odd directions. Even
first thing in the morning it looked great.
Figures. "I can
never wake up when I take them, and I can't be tardy my first day," I said
with a nervous laugh. It was another
reminder of the day I had to face. "You want a
ride to school?" he asked helping me up as I rose to stand. My head swam and I had to brace myself on the
sink ledge. I turned on the faucet and
washed my hands and face with ice cold water in an attempt to clear the haze. "No, can
you imagine what everyone would say about me if you dropped me off on the back
of your bike?" I said teasingly, but fully knowing it was true. I didn't know how I was going to explain JP
as it was, and it wouldn’t make it any better riding in on the back of his
motorcycle. "I still
think you should do the online thing, you were doing pretty well." He seemed very nervous in the moment, he
always fidgeting with his hair when he was feeling anxious about something. I was surprised he brought it up, though the
idea was not without merit. I had been
doing well, more like off the charts well, considering my unconventional
schooling as a child. My caseworker even
made me take some of the tests over, convinced I had cheated the first time. "Yes, but
if I want to get into a good college it will look better if go to St.
Michael's. I have no history in
traditional classes, I have no school record at all." I saw a muscle jump in JP's jaw. He felt protective of me, and not being there
to stop what happened to my face still haunted him. I wasn't the only one who
woke up with nightmares. "So take
the GED and go to college now, you can do the community college stuff for a
while," he said, sounding a bit desperate.
I shook my head, wishing it could be that easy. "This was
your idea in the first place JP. You
were the one that called me in on this opportunity. Plus, you want me to go from never having
been to school, to enrolling in college?
Do you know how hard it is just to enroll in high school without so much
as a birth certificate? Without this
step, I'm going to have hard time moving on to anything else." I had begun to think it was impossible,
without the help of the one social worker who gave a damn about me, I would
have never been able to do this. "I can't
hustle my whole life J, I have to do better." He gave me a slight nod, the worried
expression still stuck in his eyes. "I know,
but that place is going to be tough for you." He seemed like it was hard for him to say
that to me, and I didn't take offense to it.
I knew it was going to be hard. “I’ve had worse
JP.” After I said it I looked up and
faced the mirror, taking the time I did every morning to inspect my new
face. Even after three years I still had
a hard time recognizing myself, so much had changed. The left side, from just behind my ear, up
around my temple, and across the half of my eye socket, was one giant burned
scar. My left eye, unlike my right, was
a light blue rather than my natural brown.
I looked like one of those husky dogs with different colored eyes. I ran my finger over my now uneven hairline,
tracing the large square of affected area.
If I splayed out my hand, it would be just about the size of it. I shook my curly blonde hair out of its bun
and then dipped to replace it once again.
"I think
that last graft worked well, the scarring looks lighter," JP said as he
came up behind me. I nodded, knowing it
really did look better than it had been before.
He looked for a second like he was going to reach out and touch me, but
he stopped himself and his hand dropped to the side. "I'll be
okay, you have to be there too, and don’t the teachers usually have to be there
before the students?" I reminded him.
He dropped his head and fluffed his hair out, letting it fall naturally
around his face. He was hiding his eyes
from me, and it was unnerving to find him so secretive. "JP!"
I heard Veronica call out from the kitchen.
She interrupted the question I was about to throw at JP in an attempt to
figure out what was going on with him. I could smell the coffee, and it was a
reminder to myself that at least she was good for one thing. I felt him stiffen as she called out his
name, but he relented as he usually did, and left me alone in the bathroom. Grabbing my
makeup out and starting on my usual routine had me feeling more settled, it
truly didn't consist of much more than some mascara and a little liner on my
good eye. I couldn't do much with the
other so I never bothered with an excessive amount of makeup. My skin was still recovering from the last
surgery and I couldn't put anything on it while it healed. Finding my sad
looking duffel bag in the living room near the couch, which was where I had
been calling home for the last two weeks, I searched for my clothes. JP was the one that got me the application
for St. Michael's, offering me a place here until I could figure out things and
get settled at the school. It made me
worried that he was suddenly anxious about me going there now, his not so great
pep talk this morning left me confused. Perhaps he was concerned about me living
here. I knew my shelf life squatting on
the couch was coming to an end, Veronica and JP looked like they were serious
about each other. Serious enough not to
want an eighteen year old kid sharing their apartment, and I knew from
firsthand knowledge Veronica hadn’t been amiable to idea before I agreed to
come. Things didn’t get much better once
I actually got here. I think at this point it was safe to say she disliked me
very much, and she took it out on JP at every opportunity. I didn't get why she was so mad about it, but
he didn't ask me to leave yet so I was content to hold on. I searched
through my clothes and found my uniform, shaking it out to make sure it looked
decent. Glancing at the clock I realized
I needed to hurry if I was going to make it on time. I ran into the bathroom and changed, throwing
a change of clothes into my bag for later. "I got a
game later tonight, won't be home until late.
Don't wait up," I called out to him as I grabbed the coffee mug off
the island. "You
shouldn't be doing that kind of thing anymore Brienne, it's too
dangerous," she said to me, a look of fake concern in her eyes. "Leave it
alone V, she's old enough to know what she's doing," he told her back, pouring
me a refill into the coffee travel mug while pulling her into his side. "She's only
eighteen JP, you seem to forget that about her." At this she roamed her eyes over my private
school skirt, like JP needed the reminder I was a kid. It was an old accusation that she never quite
gave up on, JP told me once she was convinced we were sleeping together. There was nothing between us, that he had
made clear, but she couldn't let it go. "I still
have to pay off the hospital bill from the last graft, then I can move
out. I'll be fine, besides I'm good at
it." They didn't know how well I
did either. When I said I was planning
on moving out, she smiled, suddenly undisturbed by my current career choice. "You sure
about tonight, I got a bad feeling," JP said to me. "I've had
to sit in on a hell of a lot of games to get invited tonight, the payout is
worth the risk," I told him, shrugging off his concerns. "Call
me," he told me with a warning look.
I wouldn't need the help, but I gave him a reassuring nod anyway. "See you
there? At…at school I mean," I
asked, knowing that he was the one thing that was going to get me through
today. "Yeah,"
he said as he left Veronica's side to come over and hug me. It was a long hug, longer than he normally
did and it made me wary. "I've only
wanted what was best for you, ever since that day I first saw you," he
said looking down on me with a thoughtful expression. “I know, it’s
why I’m taking you up on this offer. So
school better not blow.” I laughed and
turned to walk out, trying not to dwell on the fact that JP’s face drained of
color as I said it.
***
I reached the principal’s
office, glancing at the gilded plaque on the wall, I knew I was in the right
place. Though she was called a
headmistress, and looked like she could be running a fortune 500 company,
versus a private school. I guess fancy
schools have fancy leaders. The good
feelings I had been trying to conjure up on the walk here evaporated with each
glance, with each step. I approached the
front desk, and to the secretary's credit she didn't so much as bat an eye at
my face. "I'm
Brienne Moreau," I told her aiming for polite but knowing I came across a
bit cold. I didn't have too much
practice at talking to strangers, and I found myself cringing at how I was
going to get through today. "Go on back
dear, she's waiting for you," she told me, quickly answering another phone
call as she pointed to the door. Headmistress
Marion Pernault was about as different from the mental image of a private
school matron as I could imagine. She
was young, possibly early forties, with short dark hair and light golden
eyes. There was almost a familiarity to
her, but it wasn't enough for me to put a finger on it. She had a bright and genuine looking smile,
training it on me the second I popped out from behind the door. "Hello
Brienne, it's a pleasure to meet with you in person. JP has told me so much about you," she
said and I was curious about what he had told her about me. I flitted my eyes around, looking for just
what I was supposed to do after that.
Thankfully Marion pointed in the direction of the chair in front of the
desk in invitation. "I'm sure
you are anxious to get out to your classes, but I just wanted to welcome you
here. I also want to encourage you to
come to me if you have any issues you may need help with." She was looking to me, I took it as my cue
for a response and I nodded like a mute idiot, feeling for the first time a bit
intimidated. "Thanks,"
I said clearing my throat. I looked down
at what was occupying her hands and found a manila folder that she was holding,
its precarious spine stretched to its maximum.
Wonderful, she had my social services file. She realized that I noticed it, and she held
it up. "I must say
it's quite the file, took me a good amount of time to review it all," she
said finally allowing her eyes to follow the path of my scar. I didn't take offense to it, she did it
plainly and not with regretful eyes like many did. There was something working behind her eyes,
but I didn’t know her well enough to decipher it. "Its
healing, the last graft really helped," I said, absently touching the skin
above my eye. It was the worst spot and
the wrinkled healing skin still hurt to touch. "It looks
good, considering," she said with a tilt of the head. I could feel my eyebrows pinch in confusion. “Considering
what?” I asked, gooseflesh appearing on my arms at her expression. "Well, the power level Remy used on you
should have burned you alive in an instant.
It's amazing you had the strength to shield him. Especially considering what happened the
night before." I leaned down in my
seat, taking a few deep breaths, and hoping against hope I wouldn't pass
out. I couldn't believe it had come to
this. I had been dodging the governance
ever since I got free, and now here I was.
JP said he had a bad feeling about today, was he trying to warn me in
the bathroom this morning? "You're her
sister," I said finally recognizing her face. I couldn't believe I didn't notice it sooner,
Penny was one of the faces from then that would forever be seared into my
memories. "Was," she said coreected me tightly,
letting her friendly mask slip a bit. "I
apologize," I said, not meaning to make such a mistake about it. I'm sure she didn't like talking about it anymore
than I did. "It was,
what almost three years ago now, and still I get angry," she said honestly
to me as she hung her head. I nodded,
being the one person who could really understand. "She was
brave," I said to her, meeting her gaze and trying not to tear up when I
thought about what Penny did for me. "She
was." She trailed off, eyes locked
on a picture in front of her that must contain her sister. "How did you
find me?" I asked in a resigned breath, knowing that I might as well talk
to her, now that I was here. "You led us
on quite a chase after that group home, and it wasn’t without its
troubles. When it became clear you would
never willingly come to us, we convinced JP to reach out and take you in after
the incident in New York. I never
thought you would go back to him, after everything. Regardless here you are." I could feel my hands shaking in anger, I had
done everything in my power to stay away from them and yet here I was, enrolled
in a governance school. Life was a cruel
b***h to me. "He's the
only person I had ever trusted, where the hell else was I going to go?" I
asked caustically, referring to her comment about JP. "We have
always made it clear you are welcome in this school system when you came of
age, you only needed to ask," Marion said, opening her arms up to indicate
where I was. They did offer me a place
here, to their credit they had made it apparent when I turned eighteen I could
attend any governance school I wanted, which is the one reason I didn't trust
them. No one in their right mind would
take a chance on me. "Why?"
I asked plainly, giving up on the pretenses and cutting down to what I wanted
to know. "You are
not them," she said, like it answered everything. I let that comment float around in my head,
willing it to sink in enough to fix that part of me that knew it was a lie. "If I'm not
them, then who am I?" I asked, summing up my existence. No matter what happened, no matter where I
was, I always returned to that question. "You are
not your father Brienne, you are a very powerful, but a very good witch. I
could sense it and so did JP." She
looked confident, but I knew from gossip that they were in the minority. Most thought I was just as crazy as my
father, and I probably was. "I look just
like him, I was raised by him. I was
raised by the lot of them. Hell, half of
the prisoners you hold I know or have known at some point. Maybe that's the reason he left me behind,” I
said, more to myself than to Marion. I almost shivered as the memories came
flooding back to me, both the good and the bad. "You do
like him, very much so, but that doesn't mean you have to turn out like
him. You don’t have to be like those
people.” Marion was sitting calmly
talking about it, but it had to be hard to look at me without feeling
resentment, I was a spitting image of him.
He destroyed so many lives. “We
can help you be better,” she finished, eyes looking energized and alert at the
prospect. "Is that
what this is about? Get me to go to school here so that you can keep an eye on
me? You can't teach me anything I don't
already know, in fact I think I could teach you some things," I said
bitterly. I saw her eyes round with
concern and I tried to remember threatening the governance, wasn't the way to
go. "We can
help with your control, we can teach you things your father refused, we can
give you a future," she said with a hopeful expression. "You mean
you can use me, you want to control me and then use what I know to your
benefit." I scoffed and rolled my
eyes, of course that’s what they wanted to do. "Is that
Remy talking, or is that your own opinion?" she asked. My mind reeled as I realized she was right,
and wrong. I had practically spoken
verbatim what he always used to tell me about the governance, about why they
wanted to take me. I shook my head,
feeling dirty just having those words come out of my mouth but I couldn't shake
the feeling that in this case they were probably true. "I'm sorry
Brienne, I should never have said that," Marion said, looking somewhat ashamed. "Turns out
fifteen years of brainwashing doesn't go away overnight. Outside of that though, I don't trust anyone
besides myself. I have no incentive to
trade what he did to me, for what you might." I didn't want it to offend her, and by the
look on her face she didn’t take it as an insult "That fair,
but maybe we can make a deal," she said looking interested. "You give this year a good try, I'll pay
off your medical bills, and get you set up for college if you so
choose." I'm sure my jaw had hit
the floor at the comment. I couldn't
believe what she was offering, what it could mean for me. "Can I
think about it?" I asked, needing more time to consider. It was a great offer, with strings I wasn’t sure
I wanted attached to me. "Of course,
how about you give it until the winter break, if you really hate what we are
doing here you can leave. If you decide
to stay the offer stands,” she said calmly, jotting down a few notes in my file
as I sat silent. I eyed her, sensing I
was by far getting the good end of this deal. "Why?"
I asked again, knowing something wasn't adding up.
"So that my
baby sister didn't die without cause. JP
didn't risk his life without a damn good reason, and it's important that I
follow through. This community let you
down before and I won't stand by and let it happen again. On top of all that," she said with a
heavy sigh, "your father is still alive, and he's going to come for you at
some point. It's inevitable, don't you
think the best thing you can do for yourself is to grow your power? If not to help us find him and kill him, but
so that when he comes to take you, you can stop him." I dropped my head and closed my eyes, knowing
there was no way I could turn her down when she offered me that. © 2013 lmkeck3510Featured Review
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