Chapter 4A Chapter by lmkeck3510Assessment
I made it to
lunch, not that I had much of an appetite.
Between worrying about the assessment, fending off the questions and
staring from the students, and thinking about JP, I was in a weird mood. I grabbed what I thought I could eat and made
my way outside. There was a
small patio attached to the back of the cafeteria. The weather was getting a bit colder now, so
I had the majority of the area to myself.
I sat down, playing with the apple in my hands, when I heard someone
behind me. "You have a
very intriguing power signature," I called over my shoulder as West
approached. "You project a bit too
much when you concentrate on something.
You should work on it, if you are going to work for them,” I explained,
taking a bit of my apple and pointing towards the building. He dropped his
tray in front of me. "I wouldn't
mess with Raquel anymore. She's on one
hell of a tear after what you said to her," he told me as he took a huge
bite out of his sandwich. Obviously
ignoring my correction. "Then why
are you out here with me, instead of comforting her delicate tendencies?"
I asked feeling for once a small smile on my lips. "I'll tell
you if you switch my text book back."
He was smiling back, even his teeth were mocking me in their perfection. I didn't get a
chance to answer as his own personal gaggle of geese walked onto the patio,
staring in shock at where he was sitting. Mave and Logan were the exceptions, they were
giving me some genuine smiles, and I returned them gladly. "We
couldn't find you in the cafeteria, I was worried," Raquel said as she sat
down on West's lap. He didn't move her,
and it made me wonder why people did things they so clearly would rather not,
he looked uncomfortable. "Worried I
might interest him?" I asked her.
She did that red faced thing again, but held her chin up. Everyone else took up seats near us. I bet they didn’t know they were getting a
show with their meal. "That is
one thing I don't have to worry about, now, you going crazy on him and possibly
hurting him, yes." I rolled my eyes
so hard it hurt. "Who
me? I'm harmless," I said with a
laugh, biting into my apple with much more tenacity than it required. "Harmless? My cousin is friends with James Jin, you
remember him don't you? He's the one
that you paralyzed in his sleep one night, you left him a whole two days before
you told someone. No one could move him,
the governance couldn't remove the spell, he...he...went to the bathroom on
himself." I narrowed my gaze on
her, and I was sad to say I was surprised she went there with me this fast. "James was
sneaking out of his bed at night to keep warm in mine. Needless to say he was uninvited, as were his
hands on my body, so I taught him a lesson.
Trust me the idea I had in mine first was much worse, and tell your
friend they should be careful around him.
He likes them young," I told her flatly still remembering the feel
of his hands on me that first night. "See what
I'm talking about West! Your mother and
father would have a brain aneurism if they found you were talking to..." "To Remy's
daughter?" I finished for her, her voice was starting to give me a
migraine, and her lame attempts to hurt me were tiring. "Wait,
that's right MacKinnon!” I said to West.
“Your parents are on the governance board aren't they? I remember them from my hearing once I was
released from the hospital, granted I could only see them with my good eye but
you look so much like your father, I should have recognized you." He might have blushed for just a second but
it was gone as soon as it came. "Yes, and
the fact that their son seems to be associating with you, well it would send
them through the roof. They are very
protective of their sons." She
straightened up, looking like the chosen princess. "Oh don't
worry Raquel, they seemed perfectly nice to me then. As it was I had half of my face almost melted
off by my own father, who then killed one of the guards sent to bring him in,
and consequently chased me for almost five miles before reaching me and trying
to kill me again. After that he had his
beta sexually assault me, so you can see they seemed to be fairly sympathetic
to me after all that." It was crickets
at the lunch table after that, no one making eye contact with me except for
West, who seemed unable to break our stare.
His eyes turned sad and I snapped, I hated when people looked at me like
that, and for some reason I didn't want him
specifically to look at me like that. 'Pity is a
luxury for those who still mourn, it has been long enough for me,’ I projected to his mind. He
threw Raquel off his lap and came at me.
I leapt from my seat and tried to backpedal to the wall, feeling taken
off guard. He pinned me into the wall,
hands on each shoulder as he held me there "How the
hell did you do that?" he asked me on a hiss. 'You're a mind
mage, and you've never experienced that before?
Anyone strong enough should be able to direct their thoughts to
you. You sure as hell are strong enough
to take them, I bet if I concentrated I could reach you miles away.' 'I don't like
it,' he said back to me, it was a bit
crackly but it worked well enough for me to get a slice of his anger with it. 'Very good, first
attempt?' He nodded his head in response. 'You don't like it because it goes against
your nature, you are made to go into other's minds, not be taken in your
own. If you were an animal, your head
would be your territory, and your protective instincts are to feel threatened
even when you know you aren't. You are
strong enough to endure it, then conquer it, and in that you can be even more
powerful then you are now.' West
looked at me again, anger warring in his eyes with excitement. "Get the
hell off of her Mr. Mackinnon," I heard JP call out from the archway,
looking every bit the Professor as I had imagined him to be. West promptly dropped his hands and looked at
them, like they would come alive and strangle him. "What were
you thinking? We don't tolerate physical
altercations of any kind here, surely you know that by now," JP said
glaring at West. "It's okay
JP, I overstepped my bounds, as I'm sure you can imagine," I said a wry
smile on my face to try and get him to relax a bit. "I don't
care if you were miles from the line, no one puts their hands on you, not
anymore," he said to me, like he had in the past, a past it seemed we were
doomed to keep reliving it together. "And I'm
telling you, I did something I ought not to have, let it go and you can walk
with me to the assessment. I need some
pointers so I don't light my instructor on fire, or paralyze him so long he
s***s himself," I said loud enough for Raquel to hear. I head a whoop of muffled laughter as Mave
and Logan turned and walked away. "Do I want
to know what you did, or what you were talking about?" JP asked me with a
much lighter tone as we walked down the hall. "Oh no, but
if you were curious I told you to read my file," I said jabbing his side
with my elbow. "I'd rather
not," he told me, easy smile giving way to a thin frown. "So you got
any last tips before I go and do this?" I asked as we stepped outside the
women's locker room. I had to change out
of my uniform for the assessment. "If I did I
doubt it would help you, you run on pure instinct and I wouldn't want to mess
that up," he said as he scanned my face. "Did you
tell them how I fight?" I asked him. "I did, but
to be honest I don't think they will know what hit them. Engaging you is...challenging. Just don't do any permanent harm and try not
to get too cocky. Other than that I'm
going to enjoy the show, it's been quite a while since I've seen you
spar." I chuckled, it came out a
bit nervous but it felt good to get some positive encouragement from him. It made me a bit nervous though, he had never
really seen me unleash my potential and I hoped he wouldn't be disgusted with
me. "You'll
pull me though right, if I get triggered?" I asked him, a desperation in
my voice was breaking free at the possibility, and I needed to know he would
step in. "Of
course..Bij…I mean Brie," he said, the tenderness in his voice and face
cut deep through my anxiety. "Brie is
cheese JP, or do you want me to call you John Paul the next time I see you in
the hallway?" I asked out over my shoulder to him as I backed into the
locker room. "Break a
leg!" he shouted back to me. I
saluted him back, here's to hoping that all that breaks. I exited the
room, entering the small office that was currently occupied by Marion. She gave me a big smile and made the
introductions. "Brienne
this is Ms. Belle, she is the defensive magic coordinator. And this is her counterpart, Mr. King the
offensive magic coordinator. They, along
with some of the senior combat specialists, will be taking you through a small
obstacle course. It is standard for
everyone, and most find it quite enjoyable.
Those that wish to watch are encouraged, it can be very
educational. "That said,
we encourage you to keep it as real as you can so we can get a good gauge for
where you are starting out at. JP has
informed us you might be further along than we first thought, but until we see
what you can do out there we won't really know.
Feel free to use full power but be careful in what spells you use, the
goal is not to hurt on another only to learn.
I won't tolerate excessive force, or injuries that aren't
necessary." I'm sure I looked
surprised that they were going to give me that much freedom out there. "Did you
read my file?" I asked Marion disbelieving that she really did. "I read it,
but I trust you," she said nodding to Ms. Belle and then leaving the room. "You will
follow me in, blindfolded, and when you hear the buzzer you have two minutes to
get through the maze. There will be
myself and Professor King as well as two selected seniors. Do you have any questions?" Did I?
But how many of them would I dare ask. "Who are
the students?" I asked her, she looked surprised but pleased I asked. "Weston
Mackinnon, and Mave St. James. Good
question," she said as she sheathed my eyes in darkness.
***
"What the
hell was that?" I heard JP bellow at me down the hallway. I flinched, for the first time around him
feeling unsure about myself. "They told
me to treat it as real, did no one read my file?" I asked, to no one in
particular. I was sitting on the ground
outside one of the classrooms, dropping the pretense and using some of the air
around me to create a cool breeze. "You can't
use that kind of magic Brienne, it's unnatural." He looked angry with me and I couldn't really
understand it. "What kind
of magic, the kind that I do, or that kind that reminds them of
Remy?" He had the audacity to look
at me like I was the one who didn't get it. "They
aren't ready for that, you just confused the hell out of what we have spent
five years teaching them." "Real magic
is not bound by rules, it is created within.
I agree, we can and should follow basic principles to keep everyone
safe, and protect each person’s rights, but that is not the reality of
magic. That is a construct this school
created to keep them contained, to keep magic as it is unintended to be. It is inherently fluid and beautiful, and
each one of us has to find our own way within that. Why on earth would that be detrimental to
their education? I followed their rules,
down to the last letter. I used no
excessive force, no one was hurt."
His eyes were huge as he stared at me, and expression that looked close
to horror on his face. "That's
because you healed them!" "JP, pain
is a tool as much as a weapon. There is
a reason humans use shock collars on their pets, it teaches something on a
cellular level. The body often obey’s
when the mind does not," I told him plainly, appealing to his reason. "I don't
even know you," he said blinking his eyes like someone else was going to
appear in front of him. "No, you
just want me to be someone I'm not. I am
his daughter JP, I was raised for fifteen years by his hand, and hand fed like
baby bird everything both good and bad that he believed to be true. This is who I am, not the thirteen year old
little girl who you wanted to save. I am
not her, I'm not Livia.” I could see his
eyes, disbelieving and quite ready to leave. "You don't
get to bring her into this," he said on a whisper, pain filling his face. "You
couldn't save her, I get that JP. But I
don't need it anymore, I'm not weak like she was." "She wasn't
weak!" he roared at me. I flinched
as he used his own magic to stop the breeze I created. "That may
be, but it doesn't change the facts. You
loved her, perhaps more than you will love another, but hiding from the truth
will never allow the past to change. You
can love someone else, someone who is strong enough to never leave
you." We had entered territory we
had circled around for a while, it was conversation perhaps better suited to
another day, but it couldn't be helped now.
It was the current under which every other conversation flowed, and it
needed to be addressed. "Livia
isn't like me, you have to know that.
Have you been picturing her the whole time you were with us, was it her
face you saw when I came around, was it her you kissed that night?" I had the sudden thought I shouldn't have
gone that far, but I was sick of being the only one willing to mention what was
going on. "I kissed
you because I wanted to, just as I did when I left you there," he said
bitterly. I hadn't felt pain in quite a
while, my father saw to it my threshold was high, but a stab of something sharp
hit me in the side. "You left
me there because you thought, just for a second, that I was more like them then
you. That hesitation was enough, and I
paid for it. I get it now JP, there can
never be an us, not just because of her, but because of me. You probably know me the best, of anyone
sadly, so what does that say about me?"
It made sense to me, but there was dark look in his eyes that indicated
I had done something wrong. "I want you
moved out by the end of the month, I'll give you that long and then you need to
find somewhere else," he said, eyes shut tight as he turned his head the
other way. "Of course
JP, I owe you that much," I said in a flat voice, but feeling like I just
lost something important. "Was it all
a lie?" I asked him, again, this time for a different reason.
"You're not
ready for the answer." He took one
more step and left me sitting alone, waiting for someone to come and tell me
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Added on September 17, 2013 Last Updated on September 25, 2013 Authorlmkeck3510Dayton, OHAboutI am a reader, writer, and lover of urban fantasy/ paranormal/ romance genres. I have several completed novels, and much more that are clamoring in my head to be given a voice. When I'm not writing,.. more..Writing
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