Not Again

Trying to resist suicide.

It’s starting to look so tempting again,

But I refuse to give in like every time before.

I made my own mother cry,

Why am I such a failure of a child?

I feel like such a f**k up,

There’s no excuse for this.

I won’t kiss my cold gun again.

I’m not gonna give up this fight,

It’s only just the beginning.

Not gonna quit this time,

No not again,

Not again.

I’ll try harder to live this time around,

I won’t let it beat me.

I’m fed up with hurting those around me,

Why must I be this way?

I can’t give up,

I just need to hold on for a little longer,

‘Till I’m pieced back together.

No never again,

Will I ever look down this barrel of a gun.

I must get through this,

I will get through this.

My life may be hanging by a tiny thread,

But that doesn’t mean I’m gonna go down without one helluva fight.

I no longer have the option of dying,

So many people care for me,

Although I cant see it.

No, I refuse to fall for my temptations again

NEVER AGAIN.