Chapter 21 : Talk with parents

"Now my love, can you please talk with us ?"(Mesanth)

We were right now in my room sitting on the couch, but this time, I sat opposite of them in a 
comfortable chair and looked at them with a hint of fear in my eyes.

My father probed me a bit and since I knew that I could no longer fool them with my innocent act 
I resolved myself to tell them almost everything. Of course, I would leave my nightly visits in the 
God's domain out of it and I tink I also should not talk about my eye condition but everything else I think is fine right ? Well maybe a little lie here and there ... 
Urg I do not really want to tell them. Haaaa *sigh*

"Spera .... Can you tell us why ? Please ?" my mother pleaded with me . 
Her tears were my undoing. I never wanted to do anything to cause them pain.

"Mommy , Daddy ... Sorry " I looked down and felt tears burn in my eyes. 
Just recently I resolved myself to change this world and now I can't even talk with my parents ... 
Really pathetic *tear falling*.

"BABY ..." My mother wants to rush to me and hug me but my father holds her back 
"Spera look at me !" He demands . I look up and stare through my tears up to his face, it is a bit blurry 
but I can see that he has a gentle expression on his face. 
"My little love, first of all you have to understand that we still love you ok ? We are just sad that you did not 
confide in us and we had to find out in such a way that you are so special .... 
The only thing we want to know is why? Why did you wait so long to let us know that you are so intelligent ?"

I could feel my eyes swelling and snot gathering in my nose. I must look like a ripe tomato .... Urg ....

"*sniff* I ... Thought you *sniff* would find me strange .... 
I could understand *sniff* most of the things going around me *sniff* when I was really little .... 
A-and I saw t-that when someone is di-different that person will be sh-shunned and h-hated *cry*" I broke down ... That was really beyond my expectations. 
As I started talking about my reasons all my insecurities and fears came boiling up and memories of my 
old life started fusing with my new memories intensifying the painful feelings ... 
As my mind cleared up again I could see my father laying on the floor with a blue eye and 
I was in the safety of my mother's arms.

"DON'T YOU DARE INTERROGATE, MY DAUGHTER !" My mother screamed at my father who 
picked himself off the ground and looked a little ashamed . 
"I'm sorry ..."(Mesanth) 
"DO YOU THINK THAT IS ENOUGH ! AT LEAST THINK ABOUT A ..."(Emerthelil) 
"Mommy it is ok ...*sniff*"(Me) 
I did not want my parents to fight about an issue that was my fault, I would feel even more responsible. 
"Sweety ..." My mom looked a little unwilling but when she looked me in the eyes and saw my resolve 
she just breathed a big sigh and hugged me tighter. 
"Mesanth please do not talk to me for a while I have to calm down first. You can ask her more questions 
but this time watch what you are saying ok?"(Emerthelil) 
"I know I know I already regret my behaviour.... I am so sorry my love I just wanted to know why ..."(Mesanth) 
"It's ok daddy *teary-smile* It was just when I thought about all the times I deceived you I could not stop crying, 
sorry for worrying you ...*haaah* So what do you want to know next ?" 
My father was taken aback but saw that I did not want to talk about this topic anymore and reluctantly 
asked me about my soul.

Great, he asks about the only thing that I could not say the truth about ... Now come on Power of imagination ... 
You can do it ... Urm .....

"You know I had this strange feeling since I can remember as if there is something around me. 
I don't know how but this feeling started flowing inside my body and I always had such a warm feeling 
in the centre of my chest ... When mommy was in danger I sent this warmth into the direction that felt right. 
On the other end of this line, there was this feeling that I always have when I am with you  and I connected with it. 
I had no Idea what I did but I thought very hard about what was going on. 
Sorry Daddy I can't really say more about that ..."

"Oh, that is ok Sweetheart. Now come here and give your Daddy a hug."

He opened his eyes and I stumbled into his arms after freeing myself of my mother's arms. 
Exhausted I fell onto his chest and dosed of all the anxious and scared feelings leaving my body.

Wow, I think I pulled that off quite well ... Let's watch how they behave the next few weeks and 
maybe I will reveal more to them ...

Now let's go visit my heavenly family .... I later have to talk with Deli and the others about a method to 
change these people's view on human rights .... 
Last time they went a little overboard but they still helped me ...