But I can't...

I just wish...

So many unspoken words I wish to say

But I can’t

So many unasked questions

Swirl inside my brain

My brain keeps importuning me

I want to ask

But I can’t

So many things I want to do

With you

To you

For you

But I can’t

The tintinnabulation of all these questions

Ringing in my head

I plead to ask

I beg

But I can’t

So many unsaid words

Wanting to be spoken...

Needing to be said…

Yearning to be asked…

But I can’t

Author's Note

There are so many things I wish to say to this person.
I know I can't, my mind keeps pounding with all these questions that I want to ask him.
But I can't...

Tell me what your thoughts are :)

Reviews

[Greg Gorman]

There's so much you want to say but you can't. Why? Do you not know what exactly you want to say? You don't know how to say it? Do you want to talk to this person alone? Don't want to be embarrassed? It's hard when there is someone and you want to say something to them. What if it's the wrong thing? You said that to them in front of their friends. That's a tough thing to live down.
Unasked questions in your brain. Do they have a friend you can talk to? Is there someone you can get advice from? A sounding board? Is there anyone who can help you? You have things to do. There are other tasks but it's hard to focus when someone is on your mind like this. What if you could be with this person? What if this person felt the same way as you did? How easy everything else could be. Not only do you know but it's the answers you wanted to hear. Questions ringing (or tintinnabulating) in your head. Your head will not, can not stop. You are enamored with this person. If only,,,
I think a lot about one person in high school. I took her to the prom. I never got the courage to ask her out after that. I wish I did. I was bummed when we didn't go out after that. If only I had spoken up. If only I had said something. If only...
So, my question is this: What is it that is preventing you from talking to this person. Why are you not able to just speak to them and break the ice. No one expects you to shout it from the rooftop and let everyone know how you feel. You plead. You beg. You obviously want to but can't. You don't. Why? How much happier would you be if you were able to break through? You express yourself well. Your frustration shows in this work. You tell the reader your feelings and what you want. Good writing. You speak of your emotions. Your feelings. Your frustrations. You write for the world to see how you feel and where your head and heart are. It's a nice message. You are a good person and you are willing to show this person how good you can be for them. Imagine what the two of you could do together.

[Kaylor Mason]

Sometimes thinking like this can drive one crazy. The great Sherlock Holmes said "Work is the greatest cure for sorrow." Usually when I get this way, I work and take my mind off whatever problem I am facing, or whatever person. I like the flow of the words in this poem; the meter is very clever. Nice work!

[Wherearemysocks]

I've liked this guy since I was on 7th grade,I was never able to say what I wanted.But maybe after reading this I will confess.

[Haley]

Have you ever heard of a "Token ____" (like guy, girl, they). In my friend group we refer to the person you can't get over as the Token Guy. The one who you wished things happened differently with, or the one who occupies your thought. It's hard to let them go (I had to unfriend my off of Facebook) in order to move past and allow some room for new thoughts!

Really great job!

[AJNJ]

With this poem you have said something so unique that most of us fail poorly at articulating! The hesitation! The Tintinnabulation! It always gets to us before we get to our words! I feel the tremulous heart. I feel the love trembling in fear within! Superb! Awesome! I love this poem!

[Nix is typing...]

I'm glad you love my poem :)
I don't ever know what to say a lot of the time, but I can tell you that your read and review put a smile on my face. :))
Thanks for your review, AJ!! :)))

[Franky]

I feel bad for them. I think we all just need to take leaps of faith at times....the fear if getting hurt has hurt me more in the, long run.

[Nix is typing...]

Really? I just don't wanna make it so that I can't even talk to this person anymore. So I'm careful with what I say around him. Thanks for the read and review, Frankie!! It's greatly appreciated :)

[Just Kim]

so full of emotion, that is churning to get out, nicely expressed

[Nix is typing...]

Thanks, Kim. :)

[Chris Shaw]

Saying nothing can cause as much pain as saying the wrong thing. You conveyed the conflict inside, well here. All good wishes Nix.

Chris

[Nix is typing...]

You're 100% correct on that, Chris, so I've found that it's just better to not say anything because I know it's going to be the wrong thing. Thanks for your review :)

[Ted Kniffen]

Well done Nix. The poem reads clearly ... the angst is understandable ... so many things are at work here which you have stated quite well.
You're at an age which some of us greybeards barely remember, but the emotional aspects of the feelings expressed are palpable.
I seem to remember having thoughts like this quite a bit as a young man.

Thanks for bringing those thoughts back to the forefront.

I do like that you say you write no matter what ... like you have no control over it. From what I read I'd say let it roll you are a prettty good writer.

Stay safe

[Nix is typing...]

Thank you, Mr. Ted, that's very sweet!!!! I'm glad my poetry brought back memories for you!! I do write a lot about whatever's on my mind. My first poem "My Trauma" that was posted seemed to catch the attention of wc pretty fast. So I've been writing every single day since I've been on here. Which sounds like a lot, but I've really only been on here for like fifteen days. :)

Thanks for your review Mr. Ted :)
Stay safe :)

[Ted Kniffen]

I will check out your first poem here and look forward to reading many more.
Sometimes quality means more than quantity ... let the thoughts flow ... they'll know where to go.

[Nix is typing...]

Thanks, Mr. Ted. I have to warn you..."My Trauma" isn't exactly...it's hard to describe...just know...you were warned. It's a true story from my past though.

[Laconic Meraki]

It's like unanswered pleas for answers that you can't even ask...

But... I have to ask... Why can't you?
Loved the writing.❤❤❤

[Nix is typing...]

Thanks for loving my writing, Laconic. :)
It's really complicated, honestly. I want to ask this guy so many things but I can't, because... If someone reads our messages of me saying all these things to him, he'll get in a bunch of trouble. So I'm trying to keep him outta trouble by not asking and saying all these things I want to. Make sense?
Thanks so much for your review, Laconic!!! :)))

Nix ❤️

[Nix is typing...]

His guardian is strict, that's the only way I know how to put that.

[Laconic Meraki]

Yes. Makes sense. So the only way you can get it out is through your writings.

[Laconic Meraki]

Because you can't just flat out ask him..

[Nix is typing...]

Exactly!! Thanks for understanding :)))

[Laconic Meraki]

That's a battle ... Seriously.

[Nix is typing...]

It really REALLY is, you have no idea how much space is being taken up in my brain from all these unasked questions.

[Nix is typing...]

Maybe...I guess only time will tell.

[Laconic Meraki]

With time and patience darling... Maybe you will get your answers. Possibly the universal way.. For now, Just breathe.

[Nix is typing...]

I'll try :)
Thanks, Laconic :))

[Laconic Meraki]

Most welcome .
You've got this. 💪
Writing it down on paper even if it's just for your eyes only is positive coping. It actually helps me a lot. 😊

[Nix is typing...]

Thanks for the advice, but I can't. My parents find it, and I'm dead. Lol.
Thanks tho :)