Day 16

Day 16

Tonight my matric exam results will present itself to me in the form of an SMS.

Yes, they still exist.

Am I nervous? Ha! Of course not! Nerves and good marks are for p*****s.

I am kidding, of course. The fact that the marks, that I have spent twelve years working on, will be arriving in a few hours is killing me.

Ideally my SMS will contain the following marks:

·         MATH : A

·         SCIENCE: A

·         BIOLOGY: A

·         AFRIKAANS: A

·         ACCOUNTING: A

·         ENGLISH HOME LANGUAGE: B (because there is not a hope in hell for me to get above 80% for English, ever)

It could, however, just as easily say that I have failed grade twelve, because I forgot to put my student number on one of the tests or something. F**k me I should have checked, but I was probably too busy trying not to s**t myself, because of the stomach problems I was blessed with in the middle of my exams.

I did try my best, but I’m afraid that in this instance my best might not deliver the results I was hoping for. In that case, f**k it.

I have this idea that my life will forever be ruined, and that I will die an uncomfortable and horrific death if I do not do well, but that is most certainly not the case. I might be depressed and even lose hope, but I will not die and I will not be defeated. I have no idea what the future holds for me anyway so if some things change I will adapt to them.

That is the truth. I will be fine. However, despite that, I am still going to lie awake tonight. So I recorded the first two Star Wars films, I will watch them tonight while I await my marks, and when the rebels get their arse handed to them in “The Empire Strikes Back” I will know that there is still “A New Hope” to look forward to.