Chapter 10

       I feel the heat. The heat coming between us. I don't want to. I can't even imagine how much worse I would feel everyday for the rest of my life is he got to out of hand with me. I pull back. I say I really have to get to class now. He sighs and says okay. We both come out of the closet. Lucky for us, the halls are dead. I hurry to class, but first I have to make a fake note for an excuse for my tardiness. I get into my first class. I sit. Do the usual. Listen to the teacher, write notes, listen to the teacher, write notes. It's great. Not. 

      An hour and a half passes by and we switch classes. You see, I'm lucky, my classes change at different time then my boy friend's since he is a senior and I'm only a junior. I rush to my next class, Biology. Ugh. I hate it.

      Another day drags on. The last bell rings and I gather my stuff and leave. I have to go home and get ready for our date tonight. I get home. I don't change my clothes, though. I have no one to impress. I out some make up on, like I do every day. I was thinking, maybe It's best that I break up with him. I think I'm going to tonight. What would he do, though? Would he get really mad? I didn't know, so just in case, I put two cans of pepper spray in my little purse. Just in case. 

     I hear a horn outside my house. My parents weren't home tonight. Like every night. They wouldn't care anyways, they don't care about anything I do. At all. I open the door and see him waiting in his truck. I take a deep breath and start walking. Okay, I can do this. I thought to myself. Inside, I was more terrified then I've ever been in my life. I just couldn't show it. I get in the truck. The radio is on heavy rock music. I can't stand it. He knows I can't, but he doesn't care. So I take a stand and shut it off.

     " Hey! That was a good song! Why did you do that?" He yells at me and punches me in the arm.

     " Stop! Come on! It's just a song!" I yell back with fear. 

  I feel multiple tears run down my cheeks as I hold my arm. 

     " Look, I'm sorry babe." He apologizes. 

    " No. No apologizing. If you are going to keep putting me through this agony then I can't be with you! I'm already scared fro my life about what you did to your previous girl friend! I can not be with someone like that! It's just sick!" I spill it all out. 

        After I'm done exploding I cover my mouth. Afraid of what else may spill out. Now, I was afraid that I did it too soon. Oh no. I think. 

      " You little....! You do NOT say that to me! I love you! I gave you everything you wanted!"

        " No you didn't! You gave me nothing! You got me unconscious! You hit me just because I turned the radio off! I can't let you do this to me! I just can't! "

     Again, too soon. Too much. Here it comes again. I turned my head, then turn it back to face him. It came so fast with so much force. Too soon. I was out. I was out cold. To soon.