Expectations

Expectations

A Chapter by Dr. YumnaKay

I learned a lot from this year.. And yet I didn't.. It's a harsh reality that though you gain experience in every passing year, still you don't really learn.. You just find new ways to make the same mistakes again.. And you NEVER learn..

It seems weird to me when people talk about hearts being broken, maybe 'cause I've never experienced any.. Betrayals, yes, but no heartbreaks.. I've always been the one giving heartbreaks.. Breaking trusts and losing sincere friends.. And yet I never learn..

Some people may deem me as cold-blooded to the most, maybe I am, especially when it comes to sympathies.. I find it hard to sympathize with people.. Yes, I do relate sometimes and that's when I can actually feel their pain but no more than that..
 
So, entering this new year I wish it turns out normal or rather better than the last.. Will it be? This is a question for which I'll have to wait another year..



© 2017 Dr. YumnaKay



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I can relate to the feelings you've expressed in this. I've done a lot of self reflecting this year, and I've almost reached the same conclusion that you have: You never learn. I often view life as the repetition of mistakes and failures ... even when you do learn from them, you find ways to make new ones, so it's like never learning anything in the first place. I guess that's the way it's supposed to be in that no one is going to be perfect. I must note that I often reflect on the past with negativity, even though my life is mostly fine, so my view on this is a little biased.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the New Year as well as your self reflections. They were thought provoking. I enjoyed reading them.

- William Liston

Posted 10 Months Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

Thank you, William for your insight here! Always appreciated ☺



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I like the way you are being so honest about yourself & your feelings & your sense of responsibility for the way things go awry. I always used to feel that I was the one to spoil most of my relationships. But now I see it all very differently. I hope that someday you will also understand these things differently in your own life, too!

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

Thank you for the kind words, BG! Hopefully I will..
Truly appreciate it :)
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I'm a serial mistake repeater....I've learned that I am just wired for certain things, however self aware I am.
I reflect often on my life but do so with a pinch of grace, not all lessons are pleasant and often expose to us some truth. Really thoughtfully penned my friend. I enjoyed reading this. Starz x

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

"Serial mistake repeater"? Lol.. Better that than being a " serial killer" 😂
On a serious.. read more
Wish u a very very happy new year Yumna :)



Posted 10 Months Ago


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Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

Happy New year to you too, Ashish ☺
It's hard to change the way we're wired - and yet we do learn... even in the self-awareness that makes us conscious of our own weaknesses and faults. I think I have learnt over time to choose my friends more carefully, to learn to be independent... yet appreciative of those who come close and share their hopes and fears with me, or to bring emotional and physical comfort, or to stimulate my mind by their own perspectives on the world around us.

It's a truism: 'We can't change the past but we can make a difference to the future'.

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

I have come to rely more upon that serenity prayer..
Thank you for your insight here.. It me.. read more
I agree that we seem to have a penchant for repeating our mistakes Yumna.
One school of thought is that we are hard-wired as such (genomes??) but I think change comes when we truly want it to come.
When things are merely (take that with a pinch of salt) uncomfortable - perhaps devastating (for a few days/weeks) to begin with but then bearable we can quickly forget the lesson. We can 'override' some lessons for our own gratification - telling ourselves lies that somehow this time...it will be different.
Many on here have spoken of such expectations as a sign of/symptom of insanity.
Have you been checked out for insanity ?? ...kidding...

The world has a funny way of turning the tables on us and only then can we truly truly see (and feel) the enormity of our decisions.

I hope you get to learn your lessons but not the hard way.

This will, I'm sure incite a few readers to look at their own lives.
A successful write then.

Happy 2017
:))

Posted 10 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

Thank you, Tony, for your insight here! I think I'm too stubborn to learn 😂
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Tony Jordan

10 Months Ago

welcome YumnaKay.
:)
I can relate to the feelings you've expressed in this. I've done a lot of self reflecting this year, and I've almost reached the same conclusion that you have: You never learn. I often view life as the repetition of mistakes and failures ... even when you do learn from them, you find ways to make new ones, so it's like never learning anything in the first place. I guess that's the way it's supposed to be in that no one is going to be perfect. I must note that I often reflect on the past with negativity, even though my life is mostly fine, so my view on this is a little biased.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the New Year as well as your self reflections. They were thought provoking. I enjoyed reading them.

- William Liston

Posted 10 Months Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Dr. YumnaKay

10 Months Ago

Thank you, William for your insight here! Always appreciated ☺

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