'KM': Number One

We really hit it off when we started treasure hunting, but it escalated when three weeks ago I asked to talk to you. I just wanted to thank you for helping me realize that people can actually care, and it turned into a lengthy conversation about a bunch of other stuff.

In the next two weeks that followed, I had seen or hung out with you every day, mostly on accident.

I was trying to figure out my feelings for you, and was worried that I was leading you on, especially since I hadn't determined exactly what my feelings for you were.

Now that I'm finally established that I just want to be friends--I'm afraid of getting hurt, and I rather have a really strong friendship than a relationship--I find out that you're afraid you are leading me on. It was through your roommate who was live-texting me the conversation, which kind of helped, but I wish I could talk to you directly about it.

You are an awesome kid who is always considerate of others, and is the epitome of a gentleman. You and I are a lot a like, and have a lot of similar interests, so I love hanging out with you.

Here's how I'm trying to look at things--mostly so I don't get hurt: it'll be three years before we're back from our missions (including Jacob), so any feelings that I have for either of you--or any feelings that you have for me--can easily change. I don't want to start getting my hopes up, and I really don't want to go through another break-up if I can help it.